Monday, June 30

God and science

'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand. 'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'

'Yes sir,' the student says.

'So you believe in God?'

'Absolutely.'

'Is God good?'

'Sure! God's good.'

'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'

'Yes.'

'Are you good or evil?’

'The Bible says I'm evil.'

The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a moment.

'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'

'Yes sir, I would.'

'So you're good!'

'I wouldn't say that.'

'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?'

The student remains silent.

'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

'Let's start again, young fellow, is God good?'

'Er...yes,' the student says. 'Is Satan good?'

The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'

'Then where does Satan come from?'

The student: 'From...God...'

'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?'

'Yes, sir.'

'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?'

'Yes.'

'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'

Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues. 'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?'

The student: 'Yes.'

'So who created them?'

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question. 'Who created them?’ There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.

'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?'

The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'

The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?'

'No sir. I've never seen Him'

'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'

'No, sir, I have not.'

'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?'

'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'

'Yet you still believe in him?'

'Yes.'

'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?'

'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'

'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own. 'Professor, is there such thing as heat?'

'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'

'And is there such a thing as cold?'

'Yes, son, there's cold too.'

'No sir, there isn't.'

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that.

There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees.

Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.

You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.'

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?'

'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night if it isn't darkness?'

'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and its called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him.

This will be a good semester. 'So what point are you making, young man?'

'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.

'Flawed? Can you explain how?'

'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student explains.

'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure.

Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.

To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.'

'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?'

'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do.'

'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?'

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the Commotion has subsided.

'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'

The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out into laughter.

'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so.

So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?'

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'I guess you'll have to take them on faith.'

'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,' the student continues.

'Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?'

Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man.

It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'

To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God.

It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God.

God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart.

It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.'

The professor sat down.

I could sing of your love forever..

Oh i feel like dancing, it's foolishness i know, but when the world has seen the light, they will dance with joy, like we're dancing now... i could sing of our love forever, i could sing of your love forever...
Today's econs test.. haha.. so much to memorise.. first time i can write something for essay.. haha... every time when there's test, i will depend on God a lot more.. though we shouldn't depend on God more only in difficult situations.. ya.. so everytime before the test starts, i will definitely go to the toilet.. i will choose the cleanest cubicle, den i will start praying to God and worshiping Him in there.. haha.. cuz it's where u can be free from all distractions, like noises all those.. then after i prayed all those, i went back to study again... i was like studying, feeling like how come i cannot remember a thing? den i feel The presence of god, sitting beside me, looking at me study... i dunno la.. but i can just feel it.. i was sitting at the round table by myself.. reading again and again.. God just sits beside me, like accompanying me, looking at the paper with me.. it kinda comforted me a lot.. i love that presence!! the only thing i love about exams is that i will meet god.. as in worship, service all will la.. but exams is not nice at all.. the nice thing is only depending on God so much... haha..

Sunday, June 29

A teenager's view of Heaven

THIS IS A MUST-READ STORY.. it really change my life.. 17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time to write something for a class. The subject was what Heaven was like. 'I wowed 'em,' he later told his father, Bruce. 'It's a killer. It's the bomb. It's the best thing I ever wrote..' It also was the last. Brian Moore died May 27, 1997, the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole. He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted. The Moores framed a copy of Brian's essay and hung it among the family portraits in the living room. 'I think God used him to make a point. I think we were meant to find it and make something out of it,' Mrs. Moore said of the essay. She and her husband want to share their son's vision of life after death. 'I'm happy for Brian. I know he's in heaven. I know I'll see him.' Brian's Essay: The Room... In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read 'Girls I have liked.' I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching. This is taken from Joel's blog.. but the story is indeed meaningful and has really really touched my life, and i want to change.. i want my drawers "ppl i have shared the gospel with", "comfort i have given ppl", "time i have spend with god", all these to be filled to the max... A file named 'Friends' was next to one marked 'Friends I have betrayed.' The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird 'Books I Have Read,' 'Lies I Have Told,' 'Comfort I have Given,' 'Jokes I Have Laughed at .' Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: 'Things I've yelled at my brothers.' Others I couldn't laugh at: 'Things I Have Done in My Anger', 'Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents.' I never ceased to be surprised by the contents. Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature. When I pulled out the file marked 'TV Shows I have watched', I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast time I knew that file represented. When I came to a file marked 'Lustful Thoughts,' I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!' In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it. Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh. And then I saw it.. The title bore 'People I Have Shared the Gospel With.' The handle was brighter than those around it,seemed newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand. And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him. No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me. Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. 'No!' I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was 'No, no,' as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, 'It is finished.' I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written. 'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'-Phil. 4:13 'For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.' If you feel the same way forward it so the love of Jesus will touch their lives also My 'People I shared the gospel with' file just got bigger, how about yours?
1.What do you think of the world we're living in now? ~ Superficial, self-centered... 2.Who is/are more important to you? friends or gf? ~ my immediate family, and my spiritual family... 3.Who are the people you trust the most? ~ my cg mates, e.g shee ting, cai xuan, michelle, wei en, rui lin, nicole, si qi, pui wah, bryan.. as for the rest, it's not that i dun trust them, but it's cuz i never really talk to them enough.. 4.Do you think you have enough confidence? ~ Not really.. i tends to get nervous easily.. haha.. esp leading worship or prayer meet.. haha.. and also when there's test... 5.What do you think of YOURSELF? ~ i am a SC person.. i tend to be shy in front of strangers.. but when it comes to ppl i know.... wahaha... everything is different.. 6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? ~ ya.. i saw it once while i was in pri sch.. 7.What is your goal for this year? ~ Study hard for A levels.. No more getting "U's" in my studies(for this 2 months).. grow so much so much more in God.. become a shepherd!! bring at least 3 J1s to experience the great love of God.. see the cg size expand to 15 at least... and many many more la.. 8.Do you believe in eternal love? ~ Definitely.. i have experience this love.. haha.. so can u.. the feeling of God loving you, the feeling of God assuring you, is just so wonderful.. once u have experience it, u'll know.. 9.What feeling do you love the most? ~ The feeling of being comforted during my unpleasant times.. when ppl spend quality time with me.. and most importantly, the feeling of God speaking to me, loving me, comforting me, encouraging me........... 10.What are the requirements of your the other half? ~ Must be a christian, who is after God's heart, who is spiritually mature, who cares for everyone, who is patient, who can guide me along in my walk with god... haha.. 11.List the best moments in your life. ~ Being loved by God.. being with my caregroup members.. going to church.. Ushering.. Doing things for God and for my cg ppl... studying?(definitely NO).. 12.What do you hate most? ~ hate is too strong a word la.. but i dislike to see ppl receiving christ, and after some time, MIA.. i dislike ppl who are superficial..( that is also why i love my caregroup members) 13.Between love and money? ~ LOVE!!! Love your neighbours as youself.. and love the lord your god with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind.. money is important, but it will not be brought along with you when u die rite? 14.What's the most attractive things about a person to you? ~ spiritual maturity, walk with god, wise, knowledgeable.. 15.Describe the person who tagged you using 5 words. ~ Cai Xuan - Automatic auntie, girl after God... 16.Who can you not live without? ~ Spiritual family, family, God.. 17.If you have one wish now, what would you wish for? ~ I want to meet God.. 18.What do you want most for your birthday. ~ Something that will help me grow spiritually.. like bibles? christian books? Actually, this one, no need birthday also can give de.. haha.. joking la.. anything la.. i want my caregroup ppl to celebrate with me can le.. But my birthday is in the midst of A-levels.. ARGH!! 19.What's ur definition of love? ~ Love is patient, kind, not jealous, not boastful, not proud, not rude, not self-seeking, not easily angered, serving, not judgmental, sacrificial(like how Jesus chose to die on the cross to pay for our sins).. 20.Do you believe in dreams come true? ~ Yes, If God gimme the dream... i dunno if i sit in the cafe before my Gp test one is it a dream or not.. but i love to dream.. haha.. cuz i can also meet god in my dream, so why not?
u all know the do-re-mi song rite? just now, when i was abt to sleep, this song came into my mind so i sang it to myself slowly.. it all makes sense to me after the line fa, a long long way to go.. Do, a deer, a female deer: - a deer is God, and female deer is me, who's after God.. Re, a drop of golden sun: - God created this earth, and added light in.. and also, to be christ-like, we have to be good salt and light... Mi, a name, i call myself: - this has nth much, it means Me, the female after God.. Fa, a long long way to run: - we have to persevere on, in order to complete this race, and wait patiently for God's return.. So, a needle pulling thread: - is like a shepherd guiding a sheep.. and then, the sheep is after God, who's christ-like cuz when u sew, the needle guides the thread, in order for the thread to be value-added.. La, a note to follow so: - bible is the word of God that we had to follow... Ti, a drink with jam and bread: - a necessity.. tea has to go with jam and bread... ya.. then after that, u all know another song which has all these notes? the... do mi mi, mi so so, re fa fa, la ti ti (x2) when u know the notes to sing, u can sing most anything... (x2) Do mi mi: - after God's heart, it's me who is after God's heart... Mi so so: - i had been shepherded and is changed by God, who places this shepherd to guide me along, and also God is my shepherd, that transformed my life, that value-adds me, when i obey Him. Re fa fa: - He created this world, He wants us to persevere to the very end, until His second coming. and also be good salt and light always, bringing glory to Him, every single day until His return. La ti ti: - Bible is God's word, and we have to follow it everyday.. and reading God's word is a necessity, and have to be as important as our food and our life like how tea has to go with the jam and bread... when u know the notes to sing, u can sing most anything: when u know what God is like, when u obey Him and all his words, anything is them possible.. u can do almost everything for you have God with you... This seems a little weird to link this nursery rhyme with God.. but that's what God showed me.. in the past when i sung this song, it's without any meaning.. But God chose to show it to me now.. haha.. i think it's super cool la..
Why We Do, What We Do from Y-Hope TV on Vimeo. haha.. so many familiar faces in this video.. ppl from vjc, louis, edwin, and many many more.. haha.. Why - Nichole Nordeman (Illustrated) from Y-Hope TV on Vimeo. we are why Jesus must die...... we are the reason.. He can choose not to die on the cross for our sins, and enjoy His life in heaven.. But God love us so so much... He can't bear to see us fall into the trap of Satan, can't bear to leave us.... So He chose to die on the cross for us... This sacrificial love... won't u take it now? it's just so touching...
i love to read blogs that can help me grow!! like jasmine's, kim's and bryan's... it helps!! thank you!!
this post is from bryan, which i think is very meaningful, and it's definitely good to know this, so that when u worship God, you'll know what exactly is worship and how exactly u can worship God to the fullest... The definition that came from the famed archbishop William Temple: “Worship is the submission of all of our nature to God. It is the quickening of the conscience by his holiness; the nourishment of mind with his truth; the purifying of imagination by his beauty; the opening of the heart to his love; the surrender of will to his purpose--all this gathered up in adoration, the most selfless emotion of which our nature is capable.

Saturday, June 28

God spoke to me during the worship..... Saviour King.. He remind me of one of my tutor last time, who had an accident, and i think lost her memory or something like that.. And told me, after that she really treasured her life a lot.. The message God wanted to say is: Ppl who had undergone a near death experience(NDE), or have some accidents, they then to treasure their life much much more than they used to be.. Then, they will also live their life to the max, since they are given a chance to live on again.. So, it also apply to me and all the other christians out there!! We are considered "dead", and are given a new life by God, for He chose to die on the cross come 2000 years ago, to pay for ALL our sins.. The day of conversion, He has given us this new life, this life to live on again, like the life after those who had accidents or NDE.. So shouldn't we live our lives to the max as well? shouldn't we be also grateful for this new life God has given unto us? God has really reminded me to live life to the max, and to live for His kingdom, for that is the crown that will last forever and ever....... Another message that God gave me was "a child in awe of you" He reminded me to remain in awe of Him, like how i was so fascinated by God when i rededicated my life back to God... As older believers, we may have seen lots of things God had done in our life or in other ppl's life... after some time, we may be "immune" to the simple blessings God has given, and look for better blessings... it is ok to be spiritually greedy, but we still have to thank god for the little little things he have done... and God also want us to have Child-like faith... like how the little boy, who had 5 loaves and 2 fishes, who could have saved up for himself to eat it, but he chose to gave it to Jesus, and believe in Jesus.. After so, Jesus prayed and the food is sufficient to feed the 5000 ppl... Isn't it cool? yea.. as we grow older, especially in Singapore, we tend to be more skeptical towards things.. so no matter wad, we must aim to have child-like faith in God... trusting that he will definitely hear your prayers, trusting that he will give you the best outcome, for God knows our future, for He has the best plans for us...
When nothing is left but God, that is when u find out that God is all u need.. sentence with a large impact on me..
How long will you wait..... god just spoke to me... e.g u prayed a prayer... then after days and months and years, it have not come true.. how long are u willing to wait for it? before god thinks it's the right time and before he answers that prayer of yours, will u be waiting for it? or have u given up on it? it's similar to the day when lord Jesus comes back... before he comes back, will u still be desiring much as the past? will u still have faith that he will come back in our generation? are u gonna wait for His return? will ur faith died off by then? god is asking us to persevere.. run this spiritual race, to the very end.... keep running... don't stop... don't even run at the opposite direction, even when it is tempting.. god says as long as u depend on Him, as long as u trust in Him, as long as u love Him, u will be able to sustain, till the very end......
today morning in the bus, i was looking out of the bus window, communicating to god.. den an ambulance went past.. i was like thinking, if i were a paramedic, den have to take care of the sick la.. den like becuz of god's love, we all are caring.. den the sick ask me, how come u are so patient? how come so caring? wa.. den i started sharing christ.. it's like so cool.. it tells me that we represent god.. ppl see god thru us.. now, i tend to observe the christians, like how they carry themselves, all those la... as no one is perfect, there are not-so-good behaved christians too.. it really like represent god in a negative light.. ppl will think , christians can behave like that de meh? so it is very very important to be word-centered and really really follow the characteristics of Jesus, and also how God wants us to live our life.. i mean like c'mon, if u love god, if u say u love god, prove it! at least try to change yourselves and be christ-like.. i am not perfect, but i can proudly say, i am trying and i want to be more christ-like day-by-day.. trust me, being christ-like is a wonderful thing, and u will really feel u are with god.. [jeremiah 15:16] "when your words came, i ate them; they were my joy and my heart's delight, for i bear your name"
when i lead worship... i am still nervous.. but i feel that this time round, it is better for me.. as in at least i met god.. cuz last time always too nervous till i never go and meet god.. i was crying out to god, saying god help me, help me.. he assured me that he will be with me.. but i still get nervous after that, never really depend on god to my fullest.. i am still trying.. gonna increase my faith level higher and higher and higher!!!! it tells me that, it is not god dun wanna speak to us, it is not god dun wanna bless us, it is that, in the first place, are we willing to trust god fully? are we willing to depend on god fully? are we opening up our hearts or spiritual ears to hear what he is gonna say or are we shutting it up and not let god speak to us? are we willing to obey him fully and follow everything he ask us to do? though this worship, to me, is still not good, i still dun feel that i am spirit-led.. that is the negative part, but the positive thing is that i feel that this time round, i have improved.. bit by bit, i can lead worship well.. i believe......

Thursday, June 26

i also like this post from jasmine: "i was reminded of 2 things: 1) really having SIMPLE faith. i want to be as spiritually hungry like a newbeliever! more of God! more of GOd! 2) if someone didnt take the step of faith to ask her to church, if someone didn't purposely sowed on her and shared the gospel with her, she would NEVER be able to experienced the love of Christ in such a manner and be able to live her life to the fullest with the purpose that GOd created her for. that is why, we should share the love of Christ to the people around us. don't deprive your loved ones of the transforming power of Christ. the society don't need more doctors, more lawyers, more teachers, more nurses, more engineers, more politicians or etc. what the the society needs is JESUS. what the society needs is more little Jesus (YOU) to share with them who Jesus is. just walk across the room. just walk across the field. just walk across the hall. just walk across wherever you are to touch someone with the love of Christ!"
i like this post from nicole.. "You can say I’m permanently stuck in the adolescent stages of spiritual maturity, but I still strongly, and firmly believe that my (spiritual) father is the greatest thing that ever happened in human life. And I get so agitated and enraged when He is not credited with the glory and the honor He so rightfully deserves! And all these stems from the fact that He chooses to use us; the undeserving sinful Christians to proclaim His grandiose name. So many times I have seen God being humiliated and minimized, not because He is weak, but because His ambassadors are not faithfully honoring His name! Perhaps let’s contextualize it for students in examination periods. When a Christian don’t study hard, Christ’s name suffers! When one Christian cheats, Christ’s name is humiliated! When church leaders don’t do well in results, Christ’s ministry is compromised! When you finally realize that cross you hang around your neck represents so much more honor then you can ever behold, and we the people who are entrusted with its name sake are dragging in through mud, how much more care will we take in the manner which we live our lives!"

so warmth, so caring, so loving, so fatherly, so gentle, so calm and relaxing.........

tell u all something cool.. i end school at 12.30 today.. and there's gp essay test ( this is not the cool part...) then after shepherding which ended at around 3 plus 4, because me and shee ting did the spiritual gifting test together.. we're like so tired after that.. wanting to go home to SLEEP.. my case studies assignments weren't completed.. so i started doing it, while shee ting take a short nap.. but do u all know how boring is doing econs?! (maybe ruilin like ba.. lol..) so i started looking at the scenery - empty field, empty track, trees,..... i was sitting at the cafe table, on a higher ground, nearest to the stadium.. i was like just indulging myself in God's presence.. His creations are just so beautiful.. i think i did that for dunno how long la.. then, after that some guy just walked past our table front, where no one will usually walk.. God told me/ reminded me.. last time, i created the earth, so beautiful, so relaxed, so calm.. then i created man, who sinned against me.. that's why i have to separate from you.. i was so touched by god.. after this whole thing, i was like complaining, forget if it's to god or to shee ting or both la.. but did complained to god, that i am so tired, later go in exam hall sure can't think of any points, given my poor english.. while i was placing my head on the table, praying to god abt that, suddenly, god place a vision or a scene into me.. haha.. i cried to myself again.. at that moment, only me and shee ting were on that table in cafe, then the ppl ard were super noisy.. the scene is like the cafe table, but instead of 4 seats, there are only 3.. one for shee ting, one for me, and the last one guess who? God sat there.. for that moment, the noises seems to disappear.. then i was like complaining to god, crying to him cuz of my lousy results all those.. then, god gently hold on to my hand, and said to me " Don't worry, i will give you all wisdom" the scene is like so heavenly, where the backgrounds are like cloudy type.. then the way god speak to me, while i looked into his face, it's indescribable.. it's so warmth, so caring, so loving, so fatherly, so gentle, so calm and relaxing............................. and many more.. You just gotta experience this yourself!!!! Trust me, once you experience it, you will love that feeling a lot.. and you will never regret.. then after when i went into the audi to have my essay test.. i have a godly assurance, a godly confidence.. when the paper start, i can think of points and manage to write 2.5 sides of the paper (normally, i wrote much lesser than that).. i guess that is what makes a christian different from the others.. it's not a matter of results, but having god with you is what really matters...

Wednesday, June 25

i love this story... god really knows wad we want and what we need even before we asked him for it.. because he's the one who created us.. haha.. he even knows how many hair we have.. (and how many hair we drop.. haha.. this is random..) JESUS LOVES.
This story was written by a doctor who worked in South Africa..
One night I had worked hard to help a mother in the labor ward, but in spite of all we could do, she died leaving us with a tiny premature baby and a crying two-year-old daughter. We would have difficulty keeping the baby alive, as we had no incubator (we had no electricity to run an incubator). We also had no special feeding facilities. Although we lived on the equator, nights were often chilly with treacherous drafts. One student midwife went for the box we had for such babies and the cotton wool that the baby would be wrapped in.
Another went to stoke the fire and fill a hot water bottle. She came back shortly in distress to tell me that in filling the bottle, it had burst (rubber perishes easily in tropical climates). 'And it is our last hot water bottle!' she exclaimed. As in the West, it is no good crying over spilled milk, so in Central Africa it might be considered no good crying over burst water bottles. They do not grow on trees, and there are no drugstores down forest pathways.
'All right,' I said, 'put the baby as near the fire as you safely can, and sleep between the baby and the door to keep it free from drafts. Your job is to keep the baby warm.'
The following afternoon, as I did most days, I went to have prayers with any of the orphanage children who chose to gather with me. I gave the youngsters various suggestions of things to pray about and told them about the tiny baby. I explained our problem about keeping the baby warm enough, mentioning the hot water bottle, and that the baby could so easily die if it got chills. I also told them of the two-year-old sister, crying because her mother had died.
During prayer time, one ten-year old girl, Ruth, prayed with the usual blunt consciousness of our African children. 'Please, God' she prayed, 'send us a water bottle. It'll be no good tomorrow, God, as the baby will be dead, so please send it this afternoon.' While I gasped inwardly at the audacity of the prayer, she added, 'And while You are about it, would You please send a dolly for the little girl so she'll know You really love her?'
As often with children's prayers, I was put on the spot. Could I honestly say, 'Amen'? I just did not believe that God would do this. Oh, yes, I know that He can do everything, the Bible says so. But there are limits, aren't there? The only way God could answer this particular prayer would be by sending me a parcel from my homeland.
I had been in Africa for almost four years at that time, and I had never, ever received a parcel from home. Anyway, if anyone did send me a parcel, who would put in a hot water bottle? I lived on the equator! Halfway through the afternoon, while I was teaching in the nurses' training school, a message was sent that there was a car at my front door. By the time I reached home, the car had gone, but there, on the veranda, was a large twenty-two pound parcel. I felt tears pricking my eyes. I could not open the parcel alone, so I sent for the orphanage children.
Together we pulled off the string, carefully undoing each knot. We folded the paper, taking care not to tear it unduly. Excitement was mounting. Some thirty or forty pairs of eyes were focused on the large cardboard box. From the top, I lifted out brightly colored, knitted jerseys. Eyes sparkled as I gave them out. Then there were the knitted bandages for the leprosy patients, and the children looked a little bored. Then came a box of mixed raisins and sultanas - that would make a batch of buns for the weekend. Then, as I put my hand in again, I felt the..... could it really be? I grasped it and pulled it out - yes, a brand-new, rubber hot water bottle. I cried. I had not asked God to send it; I had not truly believed that He would.
Ruth was in the front row of the children. She rushed forward, crying out, 'If God has sent the bottle, He must have sent the dolly too!' Rummaging down to the bottom of the box, she pulled out the small, beautifully dressed dolly. Her eyes shone! She had never doubted! Looking up at me, she asked: 'Can I go over with you and give this dolly to that little girl, so she'll know that Jesus really loves her?'
That parcel had been on the way for five whole months. Packed up by my former Sunday school class, whose leader had heard and obeyed God's prompting to send a hot water bottle, even to the equator. And one of the girls had put in a dolly for an African child - five months before, in answer to the believing prayer of a ten-year-old to bring it 'that afternoon.'
'Before they call, I will answer' (Isaiah 65:24). This awesome prayer takes less than a minute. When you receive this, say the prayer,... that's all you have to do. No strings attached. Just send it on to whomever you want - but do send it on. Prayer is one of the best free gifts we receive. There is no cost but a lot of rewards. Let's continue praying for one another...
Father, I ask you to bless my friends reading this right now. I am asking You to minister to their spirit at this very moment. Where there is pain, give them Your peace and mercy. Where there is self doubting, release a renewed confidence to work through them. Where there is tiredness or exhaustion, I ask You to give them understanding, guidance, and strength as they learn submission to Your leading. Where there is spiritual stagnation, I ask You to renew them by revealing Your nearness, and by drawing them into greater intimacy with You. Where there is fear, reveal Your love, and release to them Your courage. Where there is a sin blocking them, reveal it, and break its hold over the lives of my friends. Bless their finances, give them greater vision, and raise up leaders and friends to support and encourage them. Give each of them discernment to recognize the evil forces around them, and reveal to them the power they have in You to defeat it. I ask you to do these things in Jesus' name. 'Do not ask the Lord to guide your footsteps if you're not willing to move your feet.'

Monday, June 23

this post from jasmine.. and this post is indeed very very true.. c'mon, let us guard the message, and also spread it, for these ppl really really need god.. go evax, den at least u know u had give in ur best, and at least, u have planted a seed in ppl's hearts.. "here i am, i sit here and stare at the state of the lives of my many friends around me. lives without any single purpose or meaning. lives dominated with conjured lies. searching for that perfect guy by changing from bf to bf in search of love. lives dictated by materialism and money. lives so ruined and wrecked by the insecurity in their hearts. lives that went on the wrong path because of broken families. the more i see how sin has totally destroyed and extinguished the best plan that God has actually installed for them in a life with him, the more i am convicted that Jesus is the only solution to such a wrecked world. i really can't stand it anymore, i get so burdened and my heart wrenches at the thought of the wreck in my friends' lives. only GOd can mend these broken hearts. only God can provide the love that they have been searching for their entire lives. only God can help them to finally discover the true purpose and meaning of life. God is the ONLY solution. you know people, it's really never about JUST winning the your school. if you need a reason why you should win your school, just look into your friends' lives. i cannot find a better reason why we have to win our schools, why cg08 must be completed, why Great Commission must be fulfilled. we need to have more COMPASSION! can't you see? PEOPLE NEED GOD IN THEIR LIVES! i hope this slaps you in your face. and guess what? in YOUR hands lies the solution to this world. "
just now, after i reached home, i was so tired, i went to sleep.. at around 7, my mum started to wake me up.. my standard reaction is to still lie on bed, and say gimme another 5 mins.. but my mum went out of the room, just as i wanted to close my eyes to rest for a while, she came in again.. she did it like 3 times or so la.. den i was super pissed.. den i said, can u go out first, gimme 5 mins... den she started scolding me.. i argued back a little, den i rmb the "when you're angry, the things u say will not be right.." so i just listened to her nagging and nagging.. den she started saying "fake christian" bla bla.. everytime my parents will just use this word.. i am so damn sensitive to the word.. when i hear it, i will feel like saying "wtf" and i will cry.. haha.. dun ask me why.. but i tolerated it.. i walked off to the kitchen, i prayed to god.. wad make her have to right to say fake christian? wad is her definition of christian? to me, genuine christians are those who have a personal relationship with god.. i started grumbling to god.. why aren't my parents strong christians? why am i not born in a christian family? god said, it's for u to do some work in them.. like bring them to know christ.. isn't it my honour? just then, i feel encouraged a little, but i am still angry.. so i took out "the NLT bible promise book" which i bought ytd.. i say, god, tell me wad to do.. so i flipped open a random page, the title is "anger".. woa!, sub-title is"when u're feeling angry at others".. [ephesians 4:26-27] - "don't sin by letting anger control u" don't let the sun go down while u're still angry, for anger gives a foothold to the devil. den i was like thinking.. why must the stupid devil poke me, and make me angry.? i wanna be christ-like , i try hard to be christ-like, but why must he stop me time and again.. it's so irritating la..! den i continued, and flipped open another random page of the book.. this time is forgiveness.. [numbers 14:18] - the lord is slow to anger and failed with unfailing love, forgiving any kind of sin and rebellion den i started thinking... these are characteristic of jesus.. i must follow......

Sunday, June 22

evax is hard, hard, hard... it failed again, again, again.. i need god, god, god.. to show me how, how, how..... i just tried.. but i failed again.. gonna pray more... and tml i am gonna do the prayer meet on evax... i am gonna start evaxing on ppl i dunno.. i will try.. and take courage.. (this one must try very hard.. but still i must try..) devil u watch out!! we are gonna win this school for god.. i rmb the testimony a leader(i think is xiang yu) shared during camp.. she was on the bus sitting beside a lady whom she dunno at all.. god prompted her to share to this person.. and god even tell her that that lady got medical and family problems la.. den she "stalk" that lady.. and tried to talk to her abt god.. at first, that lady denies of all the problems.. but soon, after some talk abt god, she admitted that she really have those problems..
i feel so encouraged and affirmed!!! Calista, my OGM, say she enjoys reading my blog.. at least i have fulfilled an objective for setting up this blog, and that it has not gone to waste.. one of the objectives is to influence ppl spiritually.. and i did.. i feel so happy.. it's a kinda blessing.. i think god really uses her to affirmed me a lot.. really really thank god for this sister Calista.. haha.. u're reading my blog rite? :) almost all the hw i have not done la.. den i am like so so tired.. i asked god to help me to open my eyes, and refresh me.. haha.. then after doing econs case study(which is like so hard la.. grrr...) halfway, calista talked to me on msn.. den now i am refreshed.. yea!!
i wanna buy a new bible.. =) the old one i highlight until too messy alr.. i wanna buy this type of bible, i think it's nice.. but it's like 40 plus 50 dollars.. argh..
i am so damn slow!! haha.. after ushering for like so long(to me..).. after looking at that nexus seating plan for so long.. it's only today that i realised our 2nd service only have JC and central... argh!! too slow le la!! omg.. how??!!
i think this is useful.. this chunk is taken from one of my christian OGM's blog, calista: "anw, the purpose of me blogging is cox i just feel burdened by this thing called sensitivity. u noe sometimes ppl, out of their bluntness, say things which they think "it's okie" but actually it cuts u deeper than any knife. which leads me to thinking that living life is sth like walking on a tight rope. u've gotta be sensitive to the changes around you or else you're gonna fall, or you might even cause somebody else to fall. and most of the time man fall becox of pride. that at times when things go wrong, we're ever so quick to justify ourselves and put the blame on others instead of apologising. share with you guys sth which i learnt yesterday at leaders meeting... when things go wrong, regardless of whether it is your fault or not, be the 1st to apologise for it. it might not be your mistake, so you might feel indignant saying sorry. but who say u can onli apologise for the mistakes you've made? haven't you heard ppl say," im so sorry this had to happen to your family"? see! we can also apologise becox we feel sorry that this unpleasant matter had to happen. i guess at the end of the day, no matter how others treat you, whether is it insensitively, or being overbearing, how u think (which results in your response) is realli up to yourself. "
today i god spoke to me again!! to be honest la, i am on the verge of giving up my studies.. everything just seemed so difficult.. i just can't seem to get at least pass or wad la.. esp. for bio gp and econs.. so today i really prayed to god while ushering.. i was like god u must help me la.. wad can i do.. i really want to give up my studies le la.. god!! god!! den after i prayed finish, then the worship song "our god is an awesome god he reigns with WISDOM,power and love.........." den god spoke to me.. why didn't u seek me for wisdom, why didn't u ask for it? with godly wisdom, u can definitely to great things.. then the worship leader prayed out something about studies and being a good salt and light all those.. but then hoh, spoke to me in service all those.. only one "slap" i don't want.. i want more "slaps" during service.. i want more.. haha.. kim ask us to be greedy.. so this greedy should be can ba.. is it normal to cry after that "slap"?? haha.. in camp, in cg, in service.. 3 times consecutive.. i feel so crybaby.. haha.. but thank god for it!! i wanna cry more.. i dun mind.. haha..

Thursday, June 19

today caregroup... the worship.. God spoke to me.. haha! he showed me: firstly, there's flood, then me and god was like side-by-side, i was like happy.. after that, is also flood, but this time, i was like struggling in it.. while struggling, i asked god where is he, den he appeared on clouds.. after that i dunno how, but i walk out of the flood, den walk up to the clouds.. haha!! he said "there will be lots of problems in life, but i may not be able to be with u physically to overcome these problems, but spiritually i will be with you.. i will always be with you, it's up to you whether you wanna go to him or not.." and the prophesy that part, after second song.. then, i wanted to share de.. but, i just feel so tongue-tied.. cuz i am the type of dun-dare-to-speak-up person... so after some time, sheeting shared, then someone confirmed it(i think).. then no one spoke up any le.. i still wanted to share, but still dun dare.. den i ask god, "god, if u want me to share, ask another person share lei".. after that, wei en start by saying "to conclude......" den i was like, "but i want to share, i dun dare... argh!!!!" den wei en shared what god spoke to him.. but i was thinking, after he share, i think he'll end the worship thing le.. the whole atmosphere is the kind of ending the whole worship session kind already la.. but then,!!!! rui lin suddenly spoke "to confirm the word,........." den i was thinking " wa god, i need to share le hoh.. rui lin is that 'another person' u sent right..." after that, i got the courage to share le.. i feel so stupid (after the worship) for asking god for this.. haha.. but in the end, stupid for good la.. haha!
tell u all.. that night, i think yesterday night ba.. i was brushing my teeth, den my stitches drop out.. so the gum around the wisdom teeth there open.. but not pain la.. (dunno why) den i was super scared.. i told my parents, and shee ting.. den they nvr really consoled me la.. (i am not trying to say anything bad..) maybe i dunno how to express out ba.. but i keep asking god, telling god.. like "God, i am very scared, how how??!!!" den i listened to my mp3.. before that, i prayed, "god, tell me how...." when i switched on, it was in the middle part of the song.. "Love unfailing, overtaking my heart, finding peace again, FEAR IS LOST, in all you are........." initially, i see the title of the song, i was thinking, "how can this comfort me sia.." but after that whole line came out, i feel somewhat comforted.. its like, god is telling me "trust in him, everything will be alright, den your fear will be gone"

Friday, June 13

My wisdom teeth extraction this morning.. haha.. that sleeping gas was super smelly.. but luckily, i just have to breathe in once.. and the doctors and nurses were very good and friendly.. after the surgery, my mouth and tongue was super numb.. numb till the extend, i dunno how to swallow stuff or drink anything.. thank god for the nice ppl.. lucky it's not those fierce ppl.. haha.. Pray for me k?!! must.. that tml it won't be very swollen and pain..(cuz the doctors say it will) if not pain/swollen and not giddy tml, i want go church.. i want.. i have to look normal (i mean my face) so that my parents will be convinced i am fine.. Ask in faith and i will receive that blessing.. haha..
Just a reminder: 1) Word-centered heart 2) Great commission mindset 3) Seed communities
This camp is super duper fun!! the most enjoying part is Praise and Worship, you can just feel God's presence.. I just love that feel.. the feeling of meeting God is just so peaceful, so calm, so loved, so WONDERFUL!!! for those who haven meet god before, i encourage u all to do so.. U can feel how i feel.. God, I love you!! I will never let you go ever again.. You are the lover of my soul, the author and perfecter of my faith..
i think that healing from God is super cool!! After the concert on day 3, quite a number of ppl were healed.. LiYin from VJC, she had knee injury, But was healed.. how cool was that man.. This shows that God is real, and can do things that are impossible!! Praise the Lord!!
God speaks to me big time in this camp!! i had always thought that i was insignificant.. firstly, i think that wad kim did, the cards all those, had really affirmed me a lot.. secondly, esp during the last night, god spoke to me a lot.. it hit me so hard that i really cried out to god.. He showed me all those ppl in the entire tpjc, which has about 1000 +++.. other Christians, stable ones, i believed is less than 100 plus.. Christians without a relationship with God are only christians by name, not by faith! Y-hope there's only 20.. 20 compared to 1000 is so little.. he told me that, so little were saved.. if i were to outreach as much as possible, there'll be ppl saved.. He also showed me how important am i.. He make me feel so burdened for the ppl.. Why? Why i wanted to reach to them, they just dun wanna be saved? Great Commission mindset.. and also god showed me a vision on the morning of 3rd day.. me talking to many other ppl, like mass evaxing that kinda feeling ba, but it's a lot of ppl... i was like how can it be? i dun have the gift of teaching lei.. but god spoke to me at night, like if he were to pour in the harvest, everyone will have to lead the rest..

Sunday, June 8

omg!! i am taken aback, but touch by this go-all-out spirit of timothy.. what happens is i brought this friend of mine to church, who also knows timothy(same OG) and Gavin(same sec sch).. so yesterday, he was touched by the holy spirit, and say he can feel the "aura".. ya.. so during altar call, though he never went down, but he went for the NB talk.. gavin, timothy and me were deciding on a time or day to follow up.. at first is decided on sunday 9am.. but this morning, he told me he got training, and have to reach mac ritchie at 8am.. so i am like omg! how? den i told gavin and timothy.. so we settled on today.. 10pm.. i called zhan yuan.. he didn't gimme any confirmed response.. and told me he have parental objections, and was scolded severely for attending service on saturday.. but we wanted to meet him, and to help him out, just 30 mins will do.. at least spare us this 30 mins before he closes up to christ.. but gavin just sms-ed me.. he told me that timothy is now at hougang point(near zhan yuan house) the mac, waiting, trying his luck.. and he's gonna wait till midnight.. i really can see god's love through him.. this spirit of his really touched me.. and i really hope that God will at least let zhan yuan read that sms abt timothy waiting for him.. God, i believed timothy has done all his best, we leave the rest to you... Pls so some miracles, i believe if zhan yuan were to meet timothy for just that 30 mins, life will NEVER be the same, and that he can , i can see that potential of him growing strong in faith.. praising and worshipping the same God in Nexus!! Everything is possible! Lord, i have faith in you!
i read jasmine's blog.. the post goes like "GOd, i really wanna say this to you. without you in my life, i would surely die. can't live a day without you." i just thought to myself after reading that.. it's short but has impact on me.. i was like thinking, now i depend on God really really a lot, be it small things or big things.. What and how will i become when i live without God? i really cannot imagine that..
WHY?!! i feel so emotionally unstable today.. i dunno if i should post this, but i'll just treat it as a place to put up my feelings ba.. Lord, heal this heart, set me free!! i feel so burdened.. teach me!!

Saturday, June 7

Pray Hard!!!!!! Tml's the LAST DAY!!!!!!

Friday, June 6

yesterday, i was watching dunno some show on tv with my mum.. den xiang yu, my DA, message me, say i have to give her the registration details by 11.30.. and the show ends at 10.. it's bad to walk off just like that.. so after the show ended, i immediately went to switch on the com.. the com was super laggy, so i juz restarted it.. den so many weird stuff came out.. the stage 1 of 3 stuff, cleaning volme stuff.. it takes about 20 mins or so.. i prayed that god helps me out.. cuz i really wanna do things for god and that i want more of these things in the future, and wanna be responsible for things la.. not knowing how long it take, i think of who to call.. i am afraid to bother some ppl, as they might be busy, and it's like 10 plus alr.. so i called ryan, since he's always free (that's what he claimed) and he seems to be online always.. but he wasn't at home.. and he was with kim.. kim helped me out, but there's connection problem... have to thank her for being so helpful.. =) by the time it was about 10.30 or 10.20.. 1 more hour, and i have to like send my DA all my unit IC number.. thank god that after i sms ryan say i find another way out, the com becomes normal.. so i started calling louis, james, and kang li.. i ask them to help out, on my mind i was like "omg.. this thing is like so last minute.. how???? hope they won't mind" i am super nervous when i called them.. haha.. but luckily, they are friendly, till i was taken aback, cuz i told them that i need it in an hours' time.. and they just said something like ok, i'll call them.. they're like so "on" la.. i think that's the essence of good leadership.. and they're efficient too.. before 11.30, they all managed to gimme the IC numbers and contact number.. it's a pleasure to work with God's ppl.. yea!! though i dunno lots of stuff, and keep asking xiang yu, but she still patiently tell me what to do.. so i have to thank god for placing a patient DA over me... haha.. cuz i am the "s-c" person.. haha..
i woke up early today! breakthrough ok.. i used to wake up everyday(as in during holidays) at about 12 plus.. latest i think 3 plus 4.. haha.. today i woke up at 7.30.. haha.. so i have to make my own breakfast.. i was like taking our the milo and stuff, about to make myself a cup of milo.. den i thought to myself, " should i drink milo first, or do QT first??" den i just said, "never mind la.. drink milo first la.. i'm so thirsty.." just then, God spoke to me,"is my words more impt than ur milo? am i not your provider?" and also one verse about living on his words as food.. or smth like that.. i can't find that verse though.. another word that speaks right into my heart.. i am looking forward to camp!! it's like super near now.. 2 or 3 more days!! those who wanna sign up, it's still not too late.. come.. it's fun!! haha.. the word fun reminds me of what nicole said to me.. about the games.. grrr...

Tuesday, June 3

today was supposed to be mcg.. but there are no visitors, so in the end, we had like a cg outing day.. we worship god in the middle of pasir ris park, on the grass patch (got ants one..).. this is super cool.. it's then, u feel super peaceful, hearing the waves and quietness, so calm.. i was like thinking, god's creation is just so wonderful, so perfect.. i think god drop me a word "i do my best, god do the rest".. did we put in our best, so that god can do the rest? he spoke to me.. yes me child, u have tried inviting ur friends.. but it's the kinda last minute one.. have u really put in ur best? i was like omg!! then we played volleyball and captain's ball.. haha.. kim was like screaming and shouting all the way, all thanks to bryan.. then, ryan tried to imitate her scream.. which is like super funny.. the way zhuyin run for the ball is also very funny.. haha..cai xuan lei, was busy snatching the ball, with her ....... skills.. haha.. the whole thing was fun.. yea we enjoyed ourselves a lot.. nevertheless, that''s not out main aim of the outing.. it's disappointing.. but i have learn that maybe today is just not the day, maybe god wanna see like how ready we are, so that when we are fully ready, he will bless us with the harvest..
haha.. i got reasons not to use de.. haha.. but now, i can le.. cuz i have changed my fasting to meat le.. haha.. today got struck me hard.. really pierced right deep into my heart.. u all know i am the introvert person rite, with ppl i dunno la.. then, it's like on the bus 109, on the way home after MCG, i was sitting down comfortably in my own seat, listening to songs.. den there's this child, she was standing.. i wanted to let her have the seat.. but i just dun dare.. ya ya.. i know it's something good.. but i just dun dare.. then god spoke to me.. just give up your comfortable seat.. but i just chose to not listened.. den i nvr move.. then he said again.. i love kids, to be like me, u should love kids too rite? shouldn't u let up the seat.. again and again, i chose to disobey his command, just because i am too afraid.. jesus is nvr afraid to do good things.. i felt burdened for the whole trip, and on my way home... when i got home, i thought thru it again and again.. i have decided to give in all that i can, to obey every single word he has spoke to me, or command me to do.. i will try all my best to never never be afraid of what he ask me to do, for i know everything he ask me to do is good, and has a reason behind it.. =)