today i woke up very early, cuz i got dreams of my a level results.. super scary.. i was so scared at that moment, everything just seemed so real.. i was scared, but at the same time, i got that assurance from God.. He said He hold my future, He has already paved my way long before i was born into this world.. i was afraid cuz i can't see my own future.. according to my own standards, i will never pass, i will not be able to enter into a course i want.. in addition, this course is only available in one uni, and there's only 75 places, though it's like a dumping ground.. i wonder how my results will be like.. i dread that day!

oya.. and today worship.. that main message really hits me a lot.. the one on the hands will not envy the eyes because it can see beautiful things, the hands will not envy the leg because it can walk,.. everyone plays a part in building a body.. everyone is useful.. that hands and eyes one, i remember is in 1 corinthians smth de.. so like since that's what's God says, i will rmb that well.. and also increase my self-confidence/esteem.. yup.. something i am still struggling with..

wanted to share this, but i keep forgetting after worship.. lol.. (just remembered) if u all see this, then great.. the last sentence of the song is "restore this dying land".. then God asked me this.. How desperate are you? If we are desperate enough, we will do anything to see it come to past.. He showed me this scene.. A kid and his parent in a toy department.. the kid will do everything he can to ask his father for a toy.. he cry, roll on the floor, keep begging the father to buy for him.. when the father sees that this boy really wants it, he will buy for him.. then another scenario is the boy don't really want the toy, but asks the father to buy for him.. he's not desperate in this case.. the father rejected him, in the end, the toys is not bought.. then God says if i am desperate enough, i will do everything to bring the people, courage to speak to them , fast, pray, ................ so i really am convicted to see this land grow.. i believe it will come to pass.. i have to increase my desperation to a much higher level..

MCG was super successful.. i am so glad that people are willing and enthu to come.. i feel very very happy, dunno how to describe that joy.. But it's like very happy la.. the first mcg was bbq + sports.. 10 plus ppl turn out.. then the 2nd mcg is the watch movie + nebo + dinner.. around 8 turn up.. really really thank God for these people and really thank God for blessing us.. Pray that MJC will not remain a barren land on that ESS to come.. yea.. Oo.. one acheivement today.. i know how to cook curry chicken le, most likely.. So next time, mcg need curry chicken, maybe i can try out.. lol.. Rmb that bbq, when everyone dunno how to cook that curry chicken.. Haha..

troubled ar...

i need to learn to trust those around me more... giving benefit of doubt isn't easy at times.. i must learn to trust God in all times too.. be it ups or downs.. trust that whatever that has happened is for the good..

I Will Run To You - Hillsong

Your eye is on the sparrow

And Your hand, it comforts me

From the ends of the Earth to the depth of my heart

Let Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose

As angels understand

For Your glory, may You draw all men

As Your love and grace demand

And I will run to You to Your words of truth

Not by might, not by power but by the spirit of God

Yes I will run the race till I see Your face

Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

Majesty (Here I Am) - Delirious

Here I am, humbled by Your majesty,

Covered by Your grace so free.

Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man,

Covered by the blood of the Lamb.

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine,

Since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.

Majesty, Majesty.

Your grace has found me just as I am,

Empty-handed but alive in Your hands.

Here I stand, humbled by the love that You give,

Forgiven so that I can forgive.

So here I stand, knowing that I am Your desire,

Sanctified by glory and fire.

And now I've found the greatest love of all is mine,

Since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.

Majesty, Majesty.

Your grace has found me just as I am,

Empty-handed but alive in your hands.

Singing Majesty, Majesty.

Forever I am changed by Your love,

In the presence of Your Majesty.

Majesty.

We're singing Majesty, Majesty.

Your grace has found me just as I am,

And I'm nothing but alive in Your hands.

We're singing Majesty, Majesty.

Forever I am changed by Your love,

In the beauty of Your Majesty.

Majesty.

As believers we are not defined by our past failures or by disappointment or by the rejection of others. We are defined as children of God! Therefore, if you are a child of God, you may suffer disappointment in this life, but you need to remember that as a child of the King, this rejection is a momentary bump in the road. You have a choice to either allow that bump to derail you and walk wounded, or you can choose to claim the heritage of a child of God and move forward in grace. Forgiveness of others and of self is a gift that you can give because it is the gift given to you by the Lord Jesus Christ (Ephesians 4:32).

This saturday is the best valentine's i have ever spent.. as in, though there isn't many events, but just this special service and the unit's shepherds' meet.. The service is also great.. When i was ushering, i was amazed by the number of people who turned up and the number of people who converted.. it's really so cool, seeing so many people touched by God.. =) God also showed me a great burden, and also show me that I am important to Him.. That picture He placed.. Is just so impactful..

This bbq event is the most successful events i have seen.. It's not that the previous ones aren't good, it's just that this time round, the people who came are very responsive, and they bond very well with one another.. Hopefully, they have really enjoyed this whole event, and they made many new friends.. i pray that they will come for future events too..

what is your priority?