today was a blessing.. i cannot go for any of the life of christ seminars. cuz tml lesson is at 8, and my parents will not allow. but thank God that tutorial at 8 was cancelled.. and lesson will start at 1pm instead.. so in the end, they allow me to go! so happy :D i think today's seminar i've learnt quite a lot.. the part on His disciples doubt God's power despite knowing Him and stayed with Him for 2 years plus.. This happen to me to.. in a way that, i have said i experienced God before, His love, promptings, etc. But when troubles/obstacles come, i do doubt.. then pastor also mentioned about God's character. Harsh on hypocrites & _(i forgot what is it)_, but gentle on sinners. i really feel quite blessed to have God as God.. If you dunno God, at least give it a try, you will never regret.. and the collest thing is the anti-thesis part, where Jesus brings new understanding to thesis.. i think that's cool... :)

this is a burden God drop me last time.. i have yet to post it.. but i think it's really very cool.. i was watching this drama called absolute boyfriend.. about this robot made to love just one person.. at the end, he can't go through life with this girl that he loves. and he chose the sacrificial way, which is to scrap himself and to let this girl find another love, so that she can love normally. there's one part about him deciding to wanna be scraped... his creator, a scientist, was super sad, cuz he created this robot, and after so so long, he has developed a bond with this robot, treating him as a human alr.. so like after the whole show end.. lol.. i go do my qt.. like partly thinking of the show, but one particular image keep flashing through my mind.. this image is the sadness on the face of the scientist, where his robot has to be scrapped. God use this to speak to me in 3 ways. First, He showed me that this scientist heart is a little like His heart.. scientist create robot, God create us.. so like everyone knows that on judgement day, only those who believe in Christ will be saved.. so the rest who doesn't believe or those that follow satan will go to hell, eternal death.. these people are also created by God. God doean't want to see this happening.. Of course, He hopes that everyone will go to heaven.. but God is just too.. He showed me how precious is everyone... My sheep, my family, my cgs, my friends, etc.. by that time i was rather broken down alr.. then after that i can clearly hear(not audibly) God saying ¹⁹Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in^a]">[a] the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, ²⁰and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." i was taken aback. it's really very very clear to me.. i will never forget.. Go and make disciples.. go and reach out to people, freshman, family, friends,..... by placing the burden for family, he showed me that my attitude towards family members hasn't been very christ-like.. so like need a change in that area.. after everything, He showed me this picture of what will happened to unsaved people.. very scary image.. it's like people drowning in a red pool... it's either their own blood or the lake of burning sulphur.. but that's not the point la.. i just know i wouldn't want to see my family/friends/people from church to be in that last picture.. i am scared.. i wouldn't want to see my loved ones there! it's painful.. what's more God? we're all His loved ones.. all the more, He wants all to be saved.. so we should give in our best in everything we do, and in evangelising too.. make evangelising your habit.. evangelising can sometimes be just being a good salt & light..

woohoo.. i think the msn conversation with jean is so cool.. cuz she injure her leg, which i believe it's not by coincidence.. yup.. she was telling me it was super pain(outcome of not eating painkillers lol..) so i just took that step to ask her if she mind me praying for her over the msn.. she doesn't mind.. and she said come and bless me.. cool! so i prayed for her, and the next thing she asked me is to pray for her everyday... haha.. now she know that seniors and me were from same church, she understands the reason behind it.. and i think it is so cool! yup yup.. the part where it is a lil' disappointing is where she dun wanna come or rather still a little unwilling to come for service. one reason is becauese her family is catholic, so naturally, her mum doesn't want her to come to a christian church.. so the reason behind it is because they scared that we will convert her to christian.. and she wanna see her mood.. haha.. (later she mood swing how? lol.. jk) since God has brought this relationship to this level, i believe God will continue to grow this relationship to a deeper level.. i wanna trust God for more.. i really want more, for God to use me more to reach to the others, and also to give me more of His heartbeat..

5th august is my interview for scholarship at SGH.. i really do hope i will be able to get it.. so i do not need to worry much about expenses.. help me pray ok?