Monday, October 27

The Price of Love

There was once a big turntable bridge spanning a large river.

Most of the time, the bridge sat with its length running parallel to the river so ships could pass freely on both sides of it.

Whenever a train was expected, the bridge was turned to cross the river, then locked securely in position to allow the train safe passage.

A switchman sat in a little shack on one side of the river. From there he could operate the controls.

One evening the switchman turned to the controls to allow the last train of the day to cross. He got the bridge into position without difficulty. But, to his horror, the locking

mechanism wouldn’t work. Unless the tracks locked securely, the train would surely jump the track and go crashing into the river with its cargo of human passengers. For just such an emergency there was a manual locking lever on the far side of the river.

Knowing there was no time to waste, he hurried to it. But to get it to work, he had to hold the lever firmly in position as the train roared on.

Then he heard a sound that made his blood run cold: “Daddy, where are you?” His four-year-old son was crossing the bridge to look for him.

The father’s first impulse was to call to the child, “Run! Run!” But the train was too close, the tiny legs would never get the child across the bridge in time.

Oh, how he wanted to let go the lever, snatch the child into his arms and carry him to safety. But he’d never make it back to the lever on time. Either the people in the train or his little son must die.

His heart breaking, he held the lever in position until the train passed safely.

No one aboard was aware of the tiny, broken body thrown mercilessly into the river by the rushing train. Nor were they aware of the pitiful figure of the sobbing man still clinging tightly to the lever. They didn’t see the grief-stricken father dragging himself home to tell his wife he had sacrificed their son to save the train load of passengers he didn’t even know.

Now, imagine what our loving heavenly Father must have felt when he sacrificed his perfect Son to save even those who reject Him and His love?

Love indeed.

Love beyond comprehension.

Behold, what manner of love the Father has bestowed on us. . . . In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him. Here in is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation (sacrifice) for our sins. . . . We love him because he first loved us. (I John 3:1; 4:9-11,19).

http://www.ipersonic.com/index.html that's a personality test.. i'm SD.. haha.. what are u? i think this test results is somewhat true except for the i am fond of animals that part, and very good with children.. and the part that i like literature, writing, animals..

Sensitive Doer (SD)

Sensitive Doers are gentle, modest and reserved persons. They cope well with everyday life and like their privacy. With their quiet, optimistic nature, they are also good, sought-after listeners and other people feel well in their company. All in all, this type is the most likeable and friendliest of all personality types. Tolerance and heir regard for others distinguish their personality. They are very caring, generous and always willing to help. They are open to and interested in everything that is new or unknown to them. However, if their inner value system or their sense of justice is hurt, Sensitive Doers can suddenly and surprisingly become forceful and assertive.sensitive Doer Sensitive Doers enjoy the comforts life offers to the full. They are very happy in everyday life. Sensitive Doers are often gifted artists or very good craftsmen. Creativity, imagination and an especially keen perception are just a few of their strong points. Sensitive Doers are very presence-oriented; long-term planning and preparations do not appeal to them. They take life as it comes and react flexibly to daily demands. They do not like too much routine and predictability. Their talents come more to the fore when work processes are variable and there are not so many rules. Sensitive Doers like to work alone; if they are part of a team, they do not get involved in competitive or power games and prefer living and working together harmoniously and openly. Sensitive Doers are completely satisfied with a small, close circle of friends as their need for social contacts is not very marked. Here, too, they avoid conflicts - quarrels and disputes put considerable strain on them. Sensitive Doers are often very fond of animals and are very good with small children. As partner, this type is loyal and reliable and is willing to invest a lot in a relationship. Mutual respect and tolerance are very important to Sensitive Doers. Their love of pleasure makes them a pleasant companion with whom one can experience intensive moments. They like to look after their partner with attentiveness and small gifts and are very sensitive to the partner’s needs - often more than to their own. However, should they meet the wrong person, they run the risk of being taken advantage of. They are then deeply disappointed.

Adjectives which describe your type

introverted, practical, emotional, spontaneous, sensitive, peace-loving, reserved, gentle, good-natured, independent, empathetic, friendly, playful, carefree, sympathetic, relaxed, quiet, modest, pleasure-loving, loyal, obliging, caring, helpful, optimistic

These subjects could interest you

art, music, craftwork, garden work, animals, nature, literature, drawing/painting, astrology, spiritual things, meditation, music, handicrafts, writing

Friday, October 24

tagged by Nic. perhaps i'm just to bored, that's why i am willing to do this... lol.. a) Answer the questions below, do a Google Image search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, and do it with minimal words of explanation. b) Tag 5 other people to do the same once you’ve finished answering every question. 1) The age you will be on your next birthday: -and the worst thing is that it'll be during A levels, this really is my worst birthday man.. - i've always dreamt of turning 18 or 16 when i was younger, but when the time really comes, it doesn't seem much of a difference.. 2) A place you will like to travel to: to brazil to see the jesus statue.. but the place i really wish to go is.. korea!! 3) Your favourite place: this should be our favourite place ba.. every saturday we'll be here.. 4) Your favourite food: yoshi salmon!! anything spicy! laksa, curry noodles.. 5) Your favourite pet: they just look cute.. i dun really like to own a pet.. cuz they may bite, they bark(so noisy), and they anyhow excrete.. 6) Your favourite colour combination: omg.. this room is super beautiful!! looks like my dream room.. gorgeous!! 7) Your favourite piece of clothing: office wear! haha.. those who know me well enough will know.. 8) Your all time favourite song: just any praise and worship songs will do.. there's too many to be named... 9) Your all time favourite TV show: any shows la.. but i like those kinda shows that features police/nurse/doctors.. 10) The town in which you live: i'm the sengkang girl.. (this is what some ppl call me -.-) i can't find any nice pics for sengkang... 11) Your screen name / nickname: they call me kong jie... in other words, air stewardess.. and the meaning behind this, shall not be mentioned.. =) the air stewardess in this picture is very pretty.. 12) Your first job: i'll never wanna do it again... that's so tiring.. 13) Your dream job: policewoman or nurse but given my current grades, this dream job is vanished.. =) 14) A bad habit you have: this one i think u all know what it means.. this is not exactly a habit. cuz i also dun want it.. [thnx to the apinun, ppl start saying i peirce my nose] notice what the girl is doing? cannot see nvm.. but i realise this is a bad habit.. lol.. the rest shall not be mentioned.. [thnx to the bubble tea] 15) Your worst fear: insects!! any kind of insects! they are so yucky.. 16) The one thing you will like to do before you die: i would like to go on a mission trip..

Thursday, October 23

http://donghaeng.net/english/flash/flash27.htm i love all the videos.. very impactful..

Sunday, October 19

Chris Tomlin - How Can I Keep From Singing

There is an endless song Echoes in my soul I hear the music ring And though the storms may come I am holding on To the rock I cling Chorus: How can I keep from singing Your praise How can I ever say enough How amazing is Your love How can I keep from shouting Your name I know I am loved by the King And it makes my heart want to sing I will lift my eyes In the darkest night For I know my Savior lives And I will walk with You Knowing You'll see me through And sing the songs You give Chorus: I can sing in the troubled times Sing when I win I can sing when I lose my step And fall down again I can sing 'cause You pick me up Sing 'cause You're there I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord When I call to You in prayer I can sing with my last breath Sing for I know That I'll sing with the angels And the saints around the throne I love this song! super meaningful. sing in all circumstances, for God is always there to help!

Saturday, October 18

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Monday, October 13

Last time i prayed for a burden. Without much realisation, God gave me a big burden. My friends. This service i broke down, nothing to do with sermon. But the thought of the souls i will bring to heaven. I questioned myself, how many souls have i saved? The people i've brought to church, how many have stayed? None. Ansel? Keeps things to himself. i really dunno what to do, but to pray for him. These things are not up to me, only God has the ability to change this kinda circumstances, and only God can change ppl's hearts, i can't. The feeling of being responsible for the SOUL of my friends. You know how heavy is that burden? Then think again, how much God feels for ALL the lost souls in the WORLD? Shouldn't we continue saving? Should we even stop? When we stop evangelising, how many souls are lost? Many, i would say. Ask God for these kinda burdens, fill youe hearts with these burdens, see things through God's eyes, feel things with God's heartbeat. Think of how much God will feel. i bet u wouldn't sit there and do nothing.

Tuesday, September 30

"Whoever can be trusted with very little can be trusted with much ... If you have not been trustworthy in handling worldly wealth, who will trust you with true riches? And if you have not been trustworthy with someone else's property, who will give you your own?" - Luke 16:10-12 (NIV)

Friday, September 26

i want my faith, my walk with God to be like this, and not, Up, Up and Up! [ignore all the words in the diagram]
Hey.. i am finding someone who was like the current me, where speaking out(in faith) is difficult.. And will get nervous easily when speaking, if the group is too big.. But has overcome this problem already.. Because, i wanna find out, how exactly did u manage to overcome it.. Lol.. cuz i am still struggling with this! Do tell me.. =)

Thursday, September 25

Many times i failed God, i walked on my own path, and not God's path. Sorry Lord. Once again, i commit myself into your mighty hands. Protect me from the things that will pull me away from you, block the things that will cause me to stumble and fall. The feeling of being far away from you, the feeling of not meeting you, the feeling of not able to hear your whisper, is not at all pleasant! Lord, help me out in my walk with you. Give me to courage, the strength to persevere. Strengthen my faith. I want to walk with you everyday of my life, to talk with you in the good and the strife. i pray that nothing can keep us apart, You are the lover of my heart. you are the only one who will look at our hearts.
...FROM THE INSIDE OUT... A thousand times I've failed Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again I'm caught in Your grace Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame Your will above all else My purpose remains The art of losing myself In bringing You praise Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame In my heart and my soul Lord I give You control Consume me from the inside out Lord let justice and praise Become my embrace To love you from the inside out
thank you for showing me Isaiah chapter 1.. thank you for reminding me about how much i failed to understand and obey your words, where i end up getting hurt.. i can see how much you love us when u said that i reared children and brought them up, but they rebelled against me. i may not understand fully how u feel, but i know it must have hurt u and disappoint u a lot. many times, when i fail to understand ur plans, i chose to walk on my own path. sorry god.i give u my heart and my soul, i give u control. change me, help to to love u from the inside out..

Tuesday, September 23

Courage.. That's what i lack.. That's also what i need to glorify the KOG.. Ask and it'll be given..

Lover of my heart

All I want is to see Your face

All I need is a moment of grace

It is in You, that I have the faith

To stand up and be strong

‘Cause I know I’m no longer bound

It is in You that I have found

Peace of mind, freedom from my sin

And the power to love and forgive

Chorus:

I want to walk with You

Everyday of my life

To talk with You

In the good and the strife

You’re my Friend

You’re my Father

For all time

Nothing can keep us apart

You’re the lover of my Heart

Monday, September 22

i realise i worry a lot this few weeks.. i feel so burdened.. 1) when i bring ansel to church.. whether he will convert, whether he feel god, whether he has really accepted christ, whether he has met god, whether he wants to commit to god, whether he wanna joins the group, etc etc.. 2) about my brother in hospital..[but he's getting well, will be discharged tml] whether he's getting well, whether he will feel better, whether he'll feel loved, whether he'll recover, whether his pain will be gone, whether he knows god, whether he wanna accept christ, whether i am able to bring him to know god, etc etc 3) jontay's cousin, thuogh i dunno him, but i found out my mum know his cousin's mum.. whether he will recover even when the doctors know nothing much abt the illness, whether the parents will accept christ, whether they'll trust in god, etc etc 4) about CG, whether ppl has met god, whether they have feel they are not left out, whether they feel loved, whether they are in tune with god, etc etc 5) studies.. whether i can do well in A levels with the current sucky results, whether i am able to enter uni, whether i can be a good salt and light, etc etc.. 6) my friends.. whether i can bring them to know god, whether i can open up their hearts, whether i am able to show them how great is god, etc etc 7) myself.. whether the songs i am choosing is right, whether the songs i am choosing are able to minister to the ppl, whether i am staying close with god, whether i am able to be a good salt and light for god, whether i can be what god has created me to be, whether i really trust god for all circumstances, etc etc. So much worries, no wonder i get so many pimples! but i rmb one sermon/teaching.. you'll worry because u dun trust in god's plan. u feel insecure of the future. we must rmb that god is always in control, no matter the outcome/circumstances. GOD IS IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING.. rmb that.. now that i've know it in my mind, i have to apply it into my heart.. i shall throw my worries to god, for he says [1 Peter 5:7] Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Thursday, September 18

Today is my MOST embarrassing day!! so many weird things happen.. 3 times i got scare by some things for nothing.. That basket with newspaper, that fish on my plate, that SHEETING! haix.. i feel so stupid now! it's like there should be nothing to get shock de, but i dunno why my body just react that way.. WHY?! DA BIAN! 3 times! fish, point at wall, "little red riding hood"..
By Your Wondrous Love By your wondrous love By your amazing grace By your precious blood All my life's forever changed Saviour of my soul Your touch has made me whole Your kingdom lives in me My heart is filled with joy and peace Chorus: Now I am your own I lift my hands and sing I bow before your throne And worship You my glorious King Now I am redeemed My soul shall ever be You bled and died for me And You alone are worthy Bridge: Worthy, worthy Worthy is the lamb of God Holy, holy Holy is the lamb of God

Monday, September 15

We Are The Reason As little children we would dream of Christmas morn Of all the gifts and toys we knew we’d find But we never realized a baby born one blessed night Gave us the greatest gift of our lives *We were the reason that He gave His life We were the reason that He suffered and died To a world that was lost He gave all He could give To show us the reason to live As the years went by we learned more about gifts The giving of ourselves and what that means On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain All because of love All because of love *Chorus I finally found the reason for living It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him (every part to Him) And all that I do every word that I say (you know I’ll be saying) I’ll be giving my all just for Him, for Him (every thing for Him) We are the reason that He gave His life We are the reason that He suffered and died To a world that was lost He gave all He could give (all that he could give all) To show us the reason to live #He is the reason to live (don’t you know do you know the reason that he came, oh he came to save us when he gave his life for us) he suffered and died To a world that was lost He gave everything (everything that He had He gave) To show us the reason to live *chorus + # together Don’t know how I could thank Jesus all that he had all.. *chorus + # together

Sunday, September 14

was reading james' blog some time ago, i think in the morning, den this paragraph really reminded me quite a lot of things..

" and I’m highlighting this in my notes: ‘we cannot underestimate what we’re doing, it has significance on our people’. every bit, bit by bit. one day, those bits and pieces will piece together and finally complete God’s work. to those who are worrying, keep holding on, keep believing, because:

Ignoring what they said, Jesus told the synagogue ruler, “Don’t be afraid; just believe.” "

Many times, i always think i am insignificant, no matter what i do is always insignificant.. That really lower my self-confidence and self-esteem a lot.. So when i was reading james' blog, and i read this, i remembered this verse.. [1 Corinthians 12:4-6, 12 - 31] 4There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit. 5There are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. 6There are different kinds of working, but the same God works all of them in all men.

12The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ. 13For we were all baptized by one Spirit into one body—whether Jews or Greeks, slave or free—and we were all given the one Spirit to drink.

14Now the body is not made up of one part but of many. 15If the foot should say, "Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body," it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 16And if the ear should say, "Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body," it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 17If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be? 18But in fact God has arranged the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. 19If they were all one part, where would the body be? 20As it is, there are many parts, but one body.

21The eye cannot say to the hand, "I don't need you!" And the head cannot say to the feet, "I don't need you!" 22On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, 23and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor. And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty, 24while our presentable parts need no special treatment. But God has combined the members of the body and has given greater honor to the parts that lacked it, 25so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. 26If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it.

27Now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it. 28And in the church God has appointed first of all apostles, second prophets, third teachers, then workers of miracles, also those having gifts of healing, those able to help others, those with gifts of administration, and those speaking in different kinds of tongues. 29Are all apostles? Are all prophets? Are all teachers? Do all work miracles? 30Do all have gifts of healing? Do all speak in tongues? Do all interpret? 31But eagerly desire the greater gifts.

as what james said, every bit, bit by bit. one day, those bits and pieces will piece together and finally complete God’s work. Like a jigsaw puzzle, what does 1 piece of the puzzle means? seems nothing? but think again, without it, how can u complete a picture? Every effort, every things we does, seems like nothing in the kingdom.. Not exactly nothing, but it seems just so minute (like an ant in the garden.. haha.. i dun like ants..) But in the end, it could be just that effort that we made, that we have made certain things possible.. For example(just an example), u are wearing a cross pendant, and on the bus, u gave up ur seat to an elderly.. She sees the cross, and that leaves an impression that christians are good.. That small little effort could have planted a good seed in her.. Who knows, she will get converted.. Everything is possible with that small little effort.. Yup..

Thursday, September 11

Why God places us in a community? Not only to feed off one another's passion, but also to help one another grow stronger in God.. Like how to tackle the problems u are facing.. Recently, like a few days ago, many things happen, it makes me somehow grow much much lesser in God.. Today had shepherding.. I can either choose to share or not to share, everyone has their choices.. But God places us in a community, so we can help one another rite? When we start to think negatively, we tend to see things mainly on the pessimistic side.. So there's this chinese saying "pang guan ze kan de zui qing" (not very sure of the exact words, but it means that those around u can see much clearer than u.. (smth like that, if u understand) So we must share, so that the problems we faced will not hinder us from our walk with God.. i was somehow struggling to share that problem, but thank God i shared.. And at least, now i can see things on a much clearer perspective.. Friday here i come.. Emmanuel..

Wednesday, September 10

Trading my sorrows

I'm trading my sorrow I'm trading my shame I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord I'm trading my sickness I'm trading my pain I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord

Chorus: And we say yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Amen I'm pressed but not crushed persecuted not abandoned Struck down but not destroyed I'm blessed beyond the curse for his promise will endure And his joy's gonna be my strength Though the sorrow may last for the night His joy comes with the morning

Monday, September 8

God will make a way

God will make a way Where there seems to be no way He works in ways we cannot see He will make a way for me

He will be my guide Hold me closely to His side With love and strength for each new day He will make a way He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness He'll lead me And rivers in the desert will I see Heaven and earth will fade But His word will still remain He will do something new today.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ This is a rather old song.. heard it long ago.. But today, as in just, when looking through iTunes, i chanced upon this song.. i played.. i am so touched and so glad that God will never leave me or forsake me.. i am really touched to tears.. this just hits me so much so much so much.. i dunno how to describe.. again, His assurance for me, in this most depressing moments in my life.. again and again He assured me.. Lord, i am sorry for making u disappointed again and again.. Fail to bring that glory to your kingdom.. I will entrust all to ur hands.. ALL! i will try, definitely.. i believe YOU will make a way for me.. You have won my heart!! You are the only one who gave up your life for me.. No one else does.. You bear all the guilt and shame, just for all of us! Thank You Lord! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

You laid aside Your majesty

You laid aside Your majesty Gave up everything for me Suffered at the hands of those You have created You took all my guilt and shame When You died and rose again Now today You reign in heaven and earth exalted I really want to worship You my God You have won my heart and I am Yours Forever and ever I will love You You are the only one who died for me Gave Your life to set me free So I lift my voice to you in adoration