my parents celebrated my birthday with me too (despite having exams the next day), they ordered pizzas.. so happy.. like i feel so blessed.. very blessed.. and my auntie bake for me these two cakes.. so nice.. and so nice to eat.. and so pretty... =)

Celebrated my birthday with the Caregroup yesterday.. haha.. so fun.. so sweet!!! Thank you all.. after the normal caregroup, i was expecting like a game then celebration.. who knows, i got cheated... Bryan was so serious that time, when he asks us all to close our eyes and think of the questions he asks.. after he say and say and say, in the end say birthday.. after a while, i forgot wad he asks, but the processing was a bit slow at that moment.. haha.. i got fooled.. haha.. and i think anointing pass down! shee ting also thought it was serious de.. and she also close her eyes, and seriously think abt it.. the others "not-so-spiritual" ones(joking..) never close their eyes loh, den laugh at me somemore.. no wonder when bryan took out his phone, and he wanted to say those questions, but i look at the screen got nothing but the desktop.. never think of that.. haha.. but it's fun..!! and the board pui wah, amanda and wei en did was very nice.. they never tear our the price tag though.. and the necklace too was nice.. amanda says the shiny cross means shine for Christ.. so meaningful.. and the "our daily bread thing".. is also very nice.. next time can read it day-by-day... yea.. train my discipline too.. haha.. this is the card they gave me.... so pretty rite? the cardboard itself is like so expensive le la.. $4.30.. from popular.. lol.. the pot is in the jars of clay.. in [2 corinthians 4].. in the above few posts.. and this.. the daily bread thing.. i thing the whole set is like so cute.. and got the god's promises too..next is this necklace.. they know i like all these stuff, then they buy for me.. so sweet.. i wore it to service today.. so nice.. shiny shiny, and it's a cross.. Thank you ppl!! Love u all!! Through the affirmation, i realised a lot more about myself.. haha.. i didn't know i was like that.. the part on child of god, and the simple love de.. haha.. lol.. it's me, and i dunno abt myself, but others know.. lol.. maybe i do without knowing ba.. cool lei.. or maybe i am too slow to process.. haha.. not that i dunno what i am doing...

Today is the day the doctors take me out from my mother's womb.. haha! celebrating birthday is fun.. i just dun like the sing birthday song part... it make me feel super weird/pai seh.. (though i have gone through it 18 times) God.. how to celebrate my birthday with you? Despite all the struggles in studies??? my wishes: - really want a breakthrough in my "patience" with everything - want to score well in A's.. (though it seems like it's impossible now) - really hope that my family can come to know God someday - really hope that the Cg will grow as one, and more ppl will come and join us.. the feeling of growing together is fun. haha! like in kindergarten like that.. haha - want marie to grow much more.. really hope that i can meet her someday - for myself, want to be more christ-like.. slow to anger, slow to speak, but quick to listen.. - wanna bring more ppl to know god.. though it seems like it always fail...

From James' blog.. Even he says it's difficult.. man! The confessions of a biology student.

November 5, 2008, 9:28 pm Filed under: Musings.

I’d say that was one crazy paper. (i agree!!!)

I think it’s perfectly fine to be affected by the outcome of the paper. (after all, you could tell from the faces of the people walking out of the exam hall) If I wasn’t affected at all, chances are, I’m dreaming. But I think it’s terribly important for us Christians, especially, to know when we are being concerned and when we step across the line to being worried.

And I think I can’t emphasize more on the fact that because of things like this that happen (well hopefully no more crazily tough papers ahead, but in case there are…) all the more I need to pray, all the more I need to spend time with God.

If I can spend 1 hour glued to the television set, then surely 1 hour of quiet time is not too demanding, right? If I can spend hours being worrying, complaining and talking about how the paper was so tough, then surely spending some time with God is not too much to ask for. (i should do this more!)

I’ve said this and I’d say this to myself and to God again: I’m gonna trust You with everything. Doors You open, no one can shut. Doors that You shut, no one can open. God, lead me to wherever You deem best and fit of my life, assure me of Your sovereign plan. I pray for Your peace that no man can snatch, no exam can rob and no amount of time may steal from.

Keep going ya’ll!

have your way

This Yearning Deep Within Me Reaches Out To You Your Oil Of Joy For Mourning Soaks Me Makes Me New Chorus: And I Will Go To Your Secret Place Bow My Knee To Your Glorious Throne Have Your Way In My Heart, Oh Lord Have Your Way I Need You, Holy Spirit Fire To My Soul Consume My Total Being Jesus Take Control

MUST READ! VERY AMAZING!!!

i think it's so amazing today.. (despite that stupid paper!) firstly, i keep grumbling to God, and i even doubt Him.. but u know what, when i questioned Him, He answered.. (can be referred to the sermon) i asked a lot a lot of questions, why this why that, why why why! after i finish asking a qns, He answered.. and He answered all my questions.. in the end, i feel like whoa, i got nothing to say le la.. cuz He really answers everything.. my heart hardened again, i doubt again.. is it really you or my mind? so i somehow didn't take it to heart, but i take it to mind.. (dunno how to express this) then, i just read bryan's blog, out of all the blogs that i can click on. it's like a prompting for me to go read his blog while i am struggling to complete all the bio(killer) chapters.. and i was rather shocked.. or quite shocked.. it's the same thing God told me.. He knew i nvr take it to heart.. this is a part of Bryan's post today: "i heard from some math paper wasn't as easy. =/ i have no idea how to encourage you guys but hey, i know everything will be alright yeh?

anyway, when you look up into the sky tml morning, take time to realise how small you just are. then you should take the time to comprehen just how big God is. then you will began to realise just how small your problem should be. just where is your magnifying glass today?" God told me at around 6 plus 7 pm, He asked me, how big is your problem? then He reminded me of this story i read before.. about a poor beggar outside a rich man's house.. but when they died, the beggar goes heaven, and the rich man is in hell........ it doesn't matter how much u had fare on earth, the only thing that matters to God is whether u love Him, and choose to obey Him.. and also, He ask me to take Him out of that box i always place Him in.. i always limit God, hence limiting how much He can work in my life.. Magnify God, not magnify the problems(in previous sermon) This really shows how much God use many many ways to tell you that He is the one talking to you, and He wants to guide you and wants to convey His words to you.. He'll use many ways, till u get the message.. Secondly is Vincent.. He is also another one online, and got nothing to do.. after the paper, i was super frustrated, super disappointed -> in a very very bad mood, that i feel like really punching someone hard(in my heart).. He encourages me, that God will make a way.. When God told me to take Him out of that box, he also reminds me that He will make a way.. But that time i chose to doubt Him right, He uses vincent to say this.. Wahaha! i don't feel that moody anymore! instead i feel refreshed, or rather, very amazed by God and what He has done.. COOL!!!

a few more days is the day God breath His breathe into me.. aiya.. i dunno how to phrase it.. excited for that day to come.. but that excitement died down due to CHEM PAPER 3.. haix.. how can i have the mood to celebrate when the next day got stats paper? grrr... maths used to be my favourite subject, a subject that i can do well.. but that was a thing of the past! (last year) now, i just hope for the best.. i trust my results into God's hands.. He will make a way!

start with the end in mind!! 20th november here i come we are already victorious from the start God is in control i know my future's in God's hand why am i still afraid? why do i still fear uncertainties? God, help me through this.. remind me time and again that you are in control. let me carve this in my heart You are real, and anything is possible.. i will trust in your plan.. but assure me once again, that whatever the plan is, it's good for me..

Voice Of Truth - Casting Crowns

Life transformation

Here I am, Oh God I bring this sacrifice – my open heart. I offer up my life. I look to You, Lord Your love that never ends Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to You, Lord In Your strength will I break through, Lord Touch me now, let Your love fall down on me I know Your love dispels all my fears.

Through the storm I will hold on Lord And by faith, I will walk on, Lord Then I’ll see beyond my calvary one day, And I will be complete in You

wad's the purpose of ur life? why are u even living in this world? just to eat, work, live and die? lol.. i have found mine quite some time ago.. u too, should go and find the purpose of your life.. =)

He Loved You So Much!

Jesus died what might be the most excruciatingly painful death ever endured by a man. A crown of thorns was crushed into His head, blood running into his eyes, nose, and mouth, blinding and choking Him. Nails were driven through His hands and feet. As the cross was dropped cruelly into its socket in the ground, His flesh tore with searing pain. A spear pierced His side. Blood emptied from every wound until each cell in His body screamed for water and nourishment.

But, incredible as it may seem, He endured still greater pain than this.

Remember, though fully man, He was also perfect God. He could not endure to look on sin with any semblance of approval. Now, he actually bore our sin in His own body on the tree. He became sin for us.

All mankind’s awful sins were placed on Jesus’ perfect person so that Father God had to turn His back on Jesus the Son, through no fault of either of them.

From eternity past the Son had always been in perfect loving harmony with God the Father.

Now, He had to cry out in the most awful distress, My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? (Mark 15:34) We can’t begin to fathom the terrible agony that all this entailed for both of them.

Jesus experienced immeasurable moral imperfection replacing the absolute moral perfection that had always been His from eternity. This was pain beyond imagining and God the Father’s limitless love for Him was reduced to total rejection. This was inner pain unfathomable.

Such suffering beyond understanding or expression, He suffered for you!

Who (Jesus) bore our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes you were healed. (I Peter 2:24).

He has made him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might be made the righteousness of God in him. (I Corinthians 5:21).

Therefore, we ought to give the more earnest heed to the things which we have heard. . . How shall we escape if we neglect so great salvation. (Hebrews 2:1-3).

The Price of Love

There was once a big turntable bridge spanning a large river.

Most of the time, the bridge sat with its length running parallel to the river so ships could pass freely on both sides of it.

Whenever a train was expected, the bridge was turned to cross the river, then locked securely in position to allow the train safe passage.

A switchman sat in a little shack on one side of the river. From there he could operate the controls.

One evening the switchman turned to the controls to allow the last train of the day to cross. He got the bridge into position without difficulty. But, to his horror, the locking

mechanism wouldn’t work. Unless the tracks locked securely, the train would surely jump the track and go crashing into the river with its cargo of human passengers. For just such an emergency there was a manual locking lever on the far side of the river.

Knowing there was no time to waste, he hurried to it. But to get it to work, he had to hold the lever firmly in position as the train roared on.

Then he heard a sound that made his blood run cold: “Daddy, where are you?” His four-year-old son was crossing the bridge to look for him.

The father’s first impulse was to call to the child, “Run! Run!” But the train was too close, the tiny legs would never get the child across the bridge in time.

Oh, how he wanted to let go the lever, snatch the child into his arms and carry him to safety. But he’d never make it back to the lever on time. Either the people in the train or his little son must die.

His heart breaking, he held the lever in position until the train passed safely.

No one aboard was aware of the tiny, broken body thrown mercilessly into the river by the rushing train. Nor were they aware of the pitiful figure of the sobbing man still clinging tightly to the lever. They didn’t see the grief-stricken father dragging himself home to tell his wife he had sacrificed their son to save the train load of passengers he didn’t even know.

Now, imagine what our loving heavenly Father must have felt when he sacrificed his perfect Son to save even those who reject Him and His love?

Love indeed.

Love beyond comprehension.

Behold, what manner of love the Father has bestowed on us. . . . In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him. Here in is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation (sacrifice) for our sins. . . . We love him because he first loved us. (I John 3:1; 4:9-11,19).

http://www.ipersonic.com/index.html that's a personality test.. i'm SD.. haha.. what are u? i think this test results is somewhat true except for the i am fond of animals that part, and very good with children.. and the part that i like literature, writing, animals..

Sensitive Doer (SD)

Sensitive Doers are gentle, modest and reserved persons. They cope well with everyday life and like their privacy. With their quiet, optimistic nature, they are also good, sought-after listeners and other people feel well in their company. All in all, this type is the most likeable and friendliest of all personality types. Tolerance and heir regard for others distinguish their personality. They are very caring, generous and always willing to help. They are open to and interested in everything that is new or unknown to them. However, if their inner value system or their sense of justice is hurt, Sensitive Doers can suddenly and surprisingly become forceful and assertive. Sensitive Doers enjoy the comforts life offers to the full. They are very happy in everyday life. Sensitive Doers are often gifted artists or very good craftsmen. Creativity, imagination and an especially keen perception are just a few of their strong points. Sensitive Doers are very presence-oriented; long-term planning and preparations do not appeal to them. They take life as it comes and react flexibly to daily demands. They do not like too much routine and predictability. Their talents come more to the fore when work processes are variable and there are not so many rules. Sensitive Doers like to work alone; if they are part of a team, they do not get involved in competitive or power games and prefer living and working together harmoniously and openly. Sensitive Doers are completely satisfied with a small, close circle of friends as their need for social contacts is not very marked. Here, too, they avoid conflicts - quarrels and disputes put considerable strain on them. Sensitive Doers are often very fond of animals and are very good with small children. As partner, this type is loyal and reliable and is willing to invest a lot in a relationship. Mutual respect and tolerance are very important to Sensitive Doers. Their love of pleasure makes them a pleasant companion with whom one can experience intensive moments. They like to look after their partner with attentiveness and small gifts and are very sensitive to the partner’s needs - often more than to their own. However, should they meet the wrong person, they run the risk of being taken advantage of. They are then deeply disappointed.

Adjectives which describe your type

introverted, practical, emotional, spontaneous, sensitive, peace-loving, reserved, gentle, good-natured, independent, empathetic, friendly, playful, carefree, sympathetic, relaxed, quiet, modest, pleasure-loving, loyal, obliging, caring, helpful, optimistic

These subjects could interest you

art, music, craftwork, garden work, animals, nature, literature, drawing/painting, astrology, spiritual things, meditation, music, handicrafts, writing

tagged by Nic. perhaps i'm just to bored, that's why i am willing to do this... lol.. a) Answer the questions below, do a Google Image search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, and do it with minimal words of explanation. b) Tag 5 other people to do the same once you’ve finished answering every question. 1) The age you will be on your next birthday: -and the worst thing is that it'll be during A levels, this really is my worst birthday man.. - i've always dreamt of turning 18 or 16 when i was younger, but when the time really comes, it doesn't seem much of a difference.. 2) A place you will like to travel to: to brazil to see the jesus statue.. but the place i really wish to go is.. korea!! 3) Your favourite place: this should be our favourite place ba.. every saturday we'll be here.. 4) Your favourite food: yoshi salmon!! anything spicy! laksa, curry noodles.. 5) Your favourite pet: they just look cute.. i dun really like to own a pet.. cuz they may bite, they bark(so noisy), and they anyhow excrete.. 6) Your favourite colour combination: omg.. this room is super beautiful!! looks like my dream room.. gorgeous!! 7) Your favourite piece of clothing: office wear! haha.. those who know me well enough will know.. 8) Your all time favourite song: just any praise and worship songs will do.. there's too many to be named... 9) Your all time favourite TV show: any shows la.. but i like those kinda shows that features police/nurse/doctors.. 10) The town in which you live: i'm the sengkang girl.. (this is what some ppl call me -.-) i can't find any nice pics for sengkang... 11) Your screen name / nickname: they call me kong jie... in other words, air stewardess.. and the meaning behind this, shall not be mentioned.. =) the air stewardess in this picture is very pretty.. 12) Your first job: i'll never wanna do it again... that's so tiring.. 13) Your dream job: policewoman or nurse but given my current grades, this dream job is vanished.. =) 14) A bad habit you have: this one i think u all know what it means.. this is not exactly a habit. cuz i also dun want it.. [thnx to the apinun, ppl start saying i peirce my nose] notice what the girl is doing? cannot see nvm.. but i realise this is a bad habit.. lol.. the rest shall not be mentioned.. [thnx to the bubble tea] 15) Your worst fear: insects!! any kind of insects! they are so yucky.. 16) The one thing you will like to do before you die: i would like to go on a mission trip..

http://donghaeng.net/english/flash/flash27.htm i love all the videos.. very impactful..

Chris Tomlin - How Can I Keep From Singing

There is an endless song Echoes in my soul I hear the music ring And though the storms may come I am holding on To the rock I cling Chorus: How can I keep from singing Your praise How can I ever say enough How amazing is Your love How can I keep from shouting Your name I know I am loved by the King And it makes my heart want to sing I will lift my eyes In the darkest night For I know my Savior lives And I will walk with You Knowing You'll see me through And sing the songs You give Chorus: I can sing in the troubled times Sing when I win I can sing when I lose my step And fall down again I can sing 'cause You pick me up Sing 'cause You're there I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord When I call to You in prayer I can sing with my last breath Sing for I know That I'll sing with the angels And the saints around the throne I love this song! super meaningful. sing in all circumstances, for God is always there to help!

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Last time i prayed for a burden. Without much realisation, God gave me a big burden. My friends. This service i broke down, nothing to do with sermon. But the thought of the souls i will bring to heaven. I questioned myself, how many souls have i saved? The people i've brought to church, how many have stayed? None. Ansel? Keeps things to himself. i really dunno what to do, but to pray for him. These things are not up to me, only God has the ability to change this kinda circumstances, and only God can change ppl's hearts, i can't. The feeling of being responsible for the SOUL of my friends. You know how heavy is that burden? Then think again, how much God feels for ALL the lost souls in the WORLD? Shouldn't we continue saving? Should we even stop? When we stop evangelising, how many souls are lost? Many, i would say. Ask God for these kinda burdens, fill youe hearts with these burdens, see things through God's eyes, feel things with God's heartbeat. Think of how much God will feel. i bet u wouldn't sit there and do nothing.