Today the evax was fun! though we started early, but only 5 possible contacts after several hours, i ended at 7 plus.. i was determined to complete all the surveys forms, with the possible contacts.. so many rejections i have to face, but i kept praying for suitable ppl.. hopefully, when i contact them, they will be willing to at least come.. disappointed with the little contacts i have obtained, but give thanks to God who helped me source for the right ppl, and developed my patience in finding the few ppl in that long hours, when my legs are breaking (thnx to my heels), and also thank God for providing the not-so-hot weather, and also thank God for giving me that determined attitude.. when it comes to things like that, i hate to give up just like that.. i told myself, if i never complete the few survey forms i was given with the possible contacts, i will not eat.. so when the others went to eat, i continued looking.. luckily, zhu yin accompanied me.. Thank God for her, i know she was hungry at that point of time too.. hopefully, this attitude will remain for the other things i do too..

desperate for growth.. life w/o growth, i feel so irritated.. but i need more discipline.. no more procrastination.. remind me also ok?

God, i need the assurance again.. that it's never by mistake.. i fear.. is it me that is really not up to standard to do it? help me to gain back that confidence of helping ppl to grow.. i know it will be done.. i will show u that i am serious about this, by proving it with actions, other than prayer.. 21 days.. short, but possible..

Looking forward to the end of A levels.. who will not be.. i am so disappointed with myself.. normally, during exam periods, i will really grow much more.. but during this A levels especially, i don't seem to grow as much.. (excluding the sermons) i feel so wasted.. A level is a real good time for me to grow, yet i have wasted it.. how? i feel that my dependence on God during this period is insufficient.. That keeps me thinking of the results.. that i will not do well.. i never put in much effort & reap what u sow.. so, i won't do well? haix.. disappointed i may be, but i am not gonna let this affect the remaining walk.. God, i need the courage and strength..

was trying to change the blogskin! stupid me, tried for sosososo long, until now, still can't.. thnx to si qin, who changed this for me.. thank you!! haha.. i am a computer-idiot..

definition of: Good - right; proper; fit Bad - inadequate or below standard; not satisfactory for use are we leading a good or bad life? good life - serve its purpose well, bad life - meaningless life.. do we live according to our purpose? If no, then why? Do you have a purpose in life? What are u living for?

i was thinking about baptism day last time(2nd march 08).. a wonderful & happy commitment to the great great God..

from left to right(top to bottom): 1) Joyce(me) -- Elise 2) Cai Xuan -- Joanne 3) Amanda -- Chloe 4) Kang Li -- Joshuarina 5) Li Tin -- Jona 6) Nicole -- Esther 7) Chicky -- Benedict

1 word/vision from you is better than thousand of words from people..

Oh man! Today's service was great!! the Praise & worship was great!! and the sermon is so awesome! pastor brendan kirby preach with the uber high energy level & with that great faith in God.. the scientific evidence are just so amazing.. God is just so awesome & amazing.. i didn't know there were so many galaxies.. and i really understand how complex is the human body.. if human body is not complex, i can pass bio with flying colours le.. haha.. at least i understand the sermon, the ATPase, the mRNA synthesis, the translation.. haha.. i guess si qin, michelle, bryan, vincent, they all dunno.. haha! see bio is good rite? lol.. Joking! everything we studied is what God create.. (phrasing is weird) Michelle! Really thanks for that heart-to-heart talk man! Shall have more next time.. haha.. Let's overcome it together!! WITH GOD!! Yea!!

Super slack now! how? after the econs paper, it feels as though A levels has ended.. but i still have another week to go.. God, give the the motivation to study again.. Remind me the purpose of studying..

Sleeping less than 7.5 hours a night was associated with a 33 per cent higher rate of cardiovascular incidents such as strokes and heart attacks, according to a study in the Journal of the American Medical Association's Archives of Internal Medicine. [i am gonna have that disease sooner or later.. lol..] We found that, overall, women who had a history of migraines had a 30 per cent lower risk of breast cancer compared to women who did not have a history of such headaches," said Christopher Li, a breast-cancer epidemiologist and associate member of the Hutchinson Center's Public Health Sciences Division in Seattle, Washington. [I got 30% lower risk of getting breast cancer.. lol..] Those who ate both quickly and to satiety were three times likelier to be overweight. [haha.. i eat slow but full, so less likely to get overweight..] Drinking warm milk, or taking a warm bath before bedtime, might also help. Explained Dr Lim: “The warm milk causes your body temperature to rise. When the body temperature cools, there is a sleep-inducing effect.” [no wonder everytime after i bathe (with warm water always), i feel so comfortable to sleep.. ] Tryptophan helps the body to produce serotonin, the “mood-lifting” brain chemical that makes a person feel good. “a little protein” raises tryptophan levels in the body. complex carbohydrates — found in whole grains, potatoes, pumpkin and yam — allow the body to uptake and metabolise tryptophan into serotonin more efficiently. [i love potatoes.. =) shld eat with almond next time.. so of u see me super high, u'll know why..]

The power of Your Name

The power of Your Name

Surely children weren't made for the streets And fathers were not made to leave Surely this isn't how it should be Let Your Kingdom come Surely nations were not made for war Or the broken meant to be ignored Surely this just can't be what You saw Let Your Kingdom come Here in my heart I will live To carry your compassion To love a world that's broken To be Your hands and feetI will give With the life that I'd been given And go beyond religion To see the world be changed By the power of Your Name Surely life wasn't made to regret And the lost were not made to forget Surely faith without action is dead Let Your Kingdom come Lord break this heart I will live To carry your compassion To love a world that's broken To be Your hands and feet I will give With the life that I'd been given And go beyond religion To see the world be changed By the power of Your Name Your Name Is a shelter for the hurting Jesus Your Name Is a refuge for the weak Only Your Name Can redeem the undeserving Jesus Your Name Holds everything I need I will live To carry your compassion To love a world that's broken To be Your hands and feet I will give With the life that I'd been given And go beyond religion To see the world be changed By the power of Your Name

Today Is The Day

Today Is The Day

Here we go! Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh I’m casting my cares aside I’m leaving my past behind I’m setting my heart and mind on You Jesus I’m reaching my hand to Yours Believing there’s so much more Knowing that all You have in store for me is good Is good Chorus: Today is the day You have made I will rejoice and be glad in it Today is the day You have made I will rejoice and be glad in it And I won’t worry about tomorrow I’m trusting in what You say Today is the day Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh Today is the day Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh I putting my fears aside I’m leaving my doubts behind I’m giving my hopes and dreams to You Jesus I’m reaching my hand to Yours Believing there’s so much more Knowing that all You have in store for me is good Is good I will stand upon Your truth. (I will stand upon Your truth) And all my days I’ll live for You (And all my days I’ll live for You)

Struggle, struggle, struggle

STRUGGLE LOTS with studies and emotions!! i may have lots of careless mistakes, i may not even do well for A's.. though all these are unpleasant, but i am still happy, i still wanna thank God for everything.. His grace is sufficient.. I am just so thankful that no matter what, God is always with me.. I am assured.. And another thing is that I am so glad that God looks into my heart, and does not look at me with judgmental eyes.. He won't accuse me of the things i have not done.. and He is all powerful yet humble.. I admit i may be prideful in some areas, but i certainly dislike ppl who boast.. seriously, i HATE that attitude! It may be my "over-sensitivity" acting up again (waa.. like some illness), but i do feel very very very uneasy.. can't ppl just be more sensitive to the ppl around? is it that difficult? boastful? if u wanna boast, boast in your weakness!!

from's bryan's blog: "to make you bigger would be to make myself smaller

the act of placing my desires below your will

to put my comfort zone below people

it is to place emotions below family

the decision to place laziness below studying for you" all applies to me! i should follow.. at times, i tend to compromise a lot.. but compromise does not make me follow the path i should walk on.. yes, God will bless u, God will make a way, but i should do my best too! Why should God bless a lazy person? i am not saying He can't.. He has given His one and only Son, what more can He not give? But i don't deserve anything, everything i have today, it's by His grace.. that is also why God said that His grace is sufficient.. [jeremiah 2:17] have u not brought this on yourselves by forsaking the Lord when He led u in the way?

The bottom line, "What Would Jesus Do?"

Jeremiah 32:17

Ah, Sovereign LORD, you have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and outstretched arm. Nothing is too hard for you.

this usher team is totally fun to be with, everyone is serving, and crappy.. one of the most recent (today) stupid thing that we do is the that we're celebrating the birthdays of 4 ushers... one of them bought the cake, and the other bought the cards.. it's like.... i choose my own cake/i choose my own card.. haha.. james, who came at a later time, was shocked to hear that.. haha..

(photo w/o james and caryn)

oh my.. when i zoom into the pic, i realised, everyone is smiling, except timothy, trying to act cool.. (oops.. sry for suaning u again.. lol..) let's take photos every week..so nice..

[2 Corinthians 4] Treasures in Jars of Clay 1Therefore, since through God's mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart. 2Rather, we have renounced secret and shameful ways; we do not use deception, nor do we distort the word of God. On the contrary, by setting forth the truth plainly we commend ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of God. 3And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing. 4The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. 5For we do not preach ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus' sake. 6For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness,"made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ. 7But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. 8We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. 11For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. 12So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you. 13It is written: "I believed; therefore I have spoken."With that same spirit of faith we also believe and therefore speak, 14because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence. 15All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God. 16Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

quote of wisdom from nicole (lol): "when we've exhausted our physical means, it's time for God's weapons to come out" so so so true!!