combined cg....

today caregroup was fun!! and kim posted the questions really set me into thinking deeper.. yes, i have a burden, but i just dunno, i just cannot convinced with my testimonies... aren't my testimonies impactful?? to me, these small blessings, are a blessings.. but why ppl just see it so differently?? and sheeting asked 2b to write on the mahjong paper the names right..? i juz realized there's like so many ppl that i have not reach out to.. or they juz keep rejecting.. haix.. Gos will help me out somehow.. i trust in Him.. and worship, though i dun really know how to sing the first song, but i really believed that i should let go of myself, and not take too much control of my life, instead, submit it into God's hands, since he has the best plans for me..

Flooding again!!

My bag was flooded again!! The other time was in the cafe, now on the bus.. all at so diu lian places.. argh!!! the thing is that my bottled is change.. i think is i never close the cap properly loh.. this time is on the bus with zolene to tm, on the way to makan.. then, i sense that my bag is wet.. i was like thinking, dun tell me my bottle leak again.. grr... luckily, i today drank quite a lot of water, so the flood wasn't that bad.. haha..

Wisdom teeth

You know what, my surgery to extract the wisdom teeth, which are super irritating, have been postponed again and again.. cuz of the events.. initially was at may 25, but was pushed to june 10, due to lessons in school.. and cuz of the Oasis camp, the extraction was pushed to a further date, not confirmed yet... argh! my gum really hurts la..!! boohoo!! pain, pain, pain!!

i was like thinking that novelty event is rather a waste a waste of time, though it may be fun at that moment, especially with Jasmine, doing that 3-legged race.. then, i was like praying before the morning assembly and for the past few days.. God, i really don't wanna have the novelty lei.. some more, it's rather "throw face".. den, after the morning assembly, yanni tell me we're not in the novelty thing.. she say the online msg never put.. woohoo.. Thank God!

Tml combined cg!!

Looking forward to the cg tml!! Tpjc caregroup was split into 2.. the A(punehneh) and B(ananas).. [lol] tml is the combined caregroup..

refer to [Ecclesiastes 7:14]

¹⁴ When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.

God allows both good times and bad times to come.. He blends them in our lives in such a way that we can't predict the future or count on human wisdom and power. We usually give ourselves credit for the good times. Then in bad times, we tend to blame God without thanking Him for the good that comes out of it. When life appears certain and controllable, don't let self-satisfaction or complacency make you too comfortable, or God may allow bad times to drive you back to Him. When life seems uncertain and uncontrollable, don't despair - God is in control and will bring good results out of your struggles. (was reading the life application bible and i saw this)

"who we are is god's gift to us, what we become is our gift to god"

Stupid fear overcame..

lol.. i have overcame a stupid fear of mine.. haha.. u know when u wash ur face with the facial foam rite, it'll be white wad.. so last time, after i wash, i dare not look into the mirror de.. but now.. i dare alr.. haha..

My soul yearns for you in the night; in the morning my spirit longs for you. When your judgments come upon the earth, the people of the world learn righteousness.[Isaiah 26:9]

unbelievable..

whoa.. let me tell u all something.. i was like ushering at glass door of nexus.. den i was like giving out the flyers for oasis camp(!!), then i was like busy giving out to everyone (everyone would wanna have it rite?) den jasmine came to me tell me i am the UA for camp.. and told me it's like collecting money all those.. den she went off.. and cuz i have to give out to the ppl entering (which is like a lot at that moment), so i didn't really think abt it much.. my response was like "orh.. ok.. collect money only ar.. ok lohx.." (that kind la..) and after the service ended, got UA meeting.. i was late for it though (cuz i duno there was a meet).. (all the ppl there i dunno them at all) initially i went, and that i was like finding familiar faces from EA.. and the paper passed around to write the names, i only found one EA slot.. i was like how to squeeze the names of the UA of VJC, MJC, and TJC.. den i never give much thought of it.. (i never even think of the UA=UNIT administrator..) sitting in front of me is my DA and another UA of some JC.. after the meet, we walked to the lift.. i keep asking them questions abt the collection of money all those la.. It was in the lift then i realised that i have to collect from the whole unit!! i was like thinking "oh my gosh.. whole unit!! so many..!! i thought for TPJC cg only!!" i was utterly shocked.. i think that 2 girls is like "u mean u dunno.. lol.." den i remembered i always prayed to God, asking Him to use me more and that i want to contribute more to the caregroup.. (not only support, decorating and stuff..) and i prayed that during service too.. He did answered my prayers... i was like thinking throughout the whole time after i realised i'm doing for the whole unit.. cuz after i know it, i was like super stress.. (dun ask me why.. i duno either) i am afraid i cannot do a good job.. then this sermon point came into my mind.. "god knows our potential is great, knows we wanna excel in his kingdom and as a result, will push us beyond our limits" (from the point: God exercises tender love & tough love towards those he loves) i think God wanna tell me that he give me this job cuz i had always wanted him to use me for greater things.. i felt assured that he still uses me, but at the same time, keep thinking "i am not able", den michelle loo told me something like cast all your stress onto him.. den i another thought came into my mind "God says: i am able" and the verse "Cast all your cares upon him for he cares for you".. At Le Meridian, Ruilin told me something stupid.. He says: Jasmine told us that joyce was the UA for camp.. den he replied saying that are u sure.. or something like that la.. sheeting, after some time, asked jasmine "joyce is UA?" and was shocked.. when ppl know that i am UA, i duno why they were shocked.. i duno why am i shocked too.. (Everyone was just shocked.. lol..) after hearing wad he had said, i feel like laughing.. haha.. till now, i still have a burning question "out of so many ppl in the unit, how come i was chosen?" as in just curious.. it's not i dun wanna do.. it like i'd never thought i will be given such a role, cuz i'm not a CL, i have not join the church for more than 1 year, i'm not in core team and all the weird thoughts la.. i am very curious.. haha..

How can a young man keep his way pure? By living according to your word. [Psalm 119:9]

my foolscape..

my angel..

from my angel.. haha.. nice chocolate.. thanx a lot.. oya.. angel mortal game rite, not supposed to say out de lei.. Kim.. haha.. ur another mortal is zolene.. lol.. she say u also tell her u are her angel.. haha.. Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners -- of whom I am the worst. [1 Timothy 1:15]

Stupid things we do while waiting for the 4pm bio to start..

they are first, discussing whose nose is fatter, and whose is longer.. so they are like "fighting" over the ruler.. haha.. clement measured his nose.. the width is like 4cm, length is like 5 cm.. super long la.. with disbelief, he asked amerce to measure for him, indeed it's the 4cm and 5cm.. amerce asked clement to help him measure.. his is the opposite of clement's.. his nose width is 5cm, and length is 4cm.. the whole thing was like super funny and super unglam.. we are like so so so stupid doing these kinda stuff.. and guess what clement and amerce do after they measured the nose? unexpected.. they calculated the volume of their nose.. using the formula to calculate volume of cone.. guess wad everyone is doing.. lol.. we're measuring the size of our eyes.. me, sabrina, amerce, nathan(only measure his nose) and yvonne(got forced).. haha.. yea.. i dun have the smallest eyes le.. yvonne has the smallest eyes..!! then amerce, then me.. woo.. i feel a sense of satisfaction.. haha.. yvonne's eyes is like 0.6cm, mine abt 0.8 to 0.9cm(cuz i duno why it varies all the time, when i measure it's 1cm loh.. haha..) amerce's is like 0.7cm.. sabrina's abt 0.8 to 1cm.. clement's one is the largest.. 1.1 or 1.2cm.. aiyo.. sabrina so "demure".. saw her leg ?? guess wad she's doing? trying to kiss a frog.. lol..

Answered prayers!!

normally throughout a day of lessons, i will fall asleep in class at least once.. so today, while taking the bus, while taking the bus, and while i was walking to the stadium for morning assembly, i prayed to God that he will provide me with the strength to like really concentrate and focus today.. and miraculously, i really kept awake throughout all the lessons today, without feeling tired.. woohoo! PRAISE GOD MAN.. ppl, u all should try too.. haha.. and today lessons was like ended at abt 1 plus, but have to wait till 4pm for bio lessons which ends at 5.30 plus.. haha.. i didn't sleep!! Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners -- of whom I am the worst. [1 Timothy 1:15]

cg..cg..cg..

caregroup yesterday was fun and warm.. the games.. i feel that my reaction is super slow la.. michelle loo, why must u choose a game that requires reaction.. lol.. den worship.. wei en play until leg cramp/numb.. and he can't move.. ans we found another guitarist in our cg.. who is..... Zhu Yin!!! oya.. sermon-d we all shared our areas of sruggle/problems out, so that we all can work together and help one another to grow more.. almost everyone shared.. as seen below, the covenant of cg.. we really are covenanted to be honest, open and trust one another, that's why we shared.. after sharing each of our own problems, the others will then provide constructive feedback to one another.. the feedback was indeed useful.. i am trying to do what u all have suggested.. thnx ppl.. now that we know one another needs, let us encourage them in one way or another.. be it big or small actions.. every actions and thoughts counts.. and this is also why God gave us this family.. [Hebrews 3:13] - but encourage one another daily as long as it is called today. [From JC east A blog] the covenant of the cg:

we're Covenanted to affirm and accept one another; we're Covenanted to be available to one another; we're Covenanted to pray for one another regularly; we're Covenanted to be honest and open and trust one another; we're Covenanted to provide constructive feedback to one another; we're Covenanted to be sensitive to the needs of one another; we're Covenanted to maintain confidentiality within the cg;

Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners -- of whom I am the worst. [1 Timothy 1:15]

flooded...

Haha.. am too tired to blog yesterday.. yesterday is like a super embarrassing day la.. my whole bag was flooded internally.. the water in my bottle was left with like abt 250cm^3, and i think i never cap it properly.. in the end the whole bag was literally flooded with water.. it's like i didn't notice it... we were like eating potato and vincent was holding my bag.. and at that moment he realised my bag was dripping water.. (vincent commented smth stupid too.. he says maybe God wants me to build a Noah's ark) cuz i was at the cafe.. and abt half of the cafe was filled with ppl and on the same table, was my friends, and some ppl i dunno, which are their friends la.. that stupid vincent, seriously did something very stupid.. my pencil case was not the waterproof type, can be considered as the spongy type.. so it absorb the water in my bag.. he took it out, the water flowed down.. and he "keep" it into my bag again.. and to removed the water, cuz the cafe was like so many ppl, i dun dare to juz pour out the water, so i take a stack of serviettes from the cafe, to slowly absorb the water in my bag and throw the tissue away..vincent helped me out, cuz he was like sitting beside me.. and cuz the tissue was soaked, obviously it'll dripped water rite? he juz drip over my potato.. grrr.. after the whole of cleaning up, i ate the potato.. when i put the potato into my mouth, shee ting and vincent were like...isn't it dirty alr? Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners -- of whom I am the worst. [1 Timothy 1:15]

My wisdom teeth

so pain.. why must ppl have wisdom teeth.. how i hope all this wisdom juz grow in my brain, and not on the teeth.. lol.. damn pain la.. make me lose my appetite for the whole day.. not exactly lose la, but it's just so pain.. i keep biting the gum of my right cheek.. argh!! my surgery is actually on may, but it's postponed, due to the remedial and stuff!! i have to suffer this pain for a longer time.. i seriously wonder how god suffer all the trials sia.. if i were god, u all can forget abt salvation alr.. haha.. This is also why, because of this great love, that we honour him, love him, praise him....... love him like he first loved us..

"If you love me, you will obey what I command." [John 14:15]

god helped me find my songs..

tell u all something very cool.. i was like finding the song "to the ends of the earth" in my music folder.. in this folder, there's like many other folders.. and i can't find the song.. cuz it's used for worship, so i'm advised to put the songs into my mobile phone.. after that, i just said to God, it goes like "god, help me find.. i dun wanna trouble other ppl.." then, that instant, i turned on my speaker.. and i duno why a music is playing from i-tunes, the song "with all i am".. the moment i saw this title, i immediately found the song i wanted.. cuz it's like 4 songs below "with all i am".. woohoo..

"If you love me, you will obey what I command." [John 14:15]

after practising worship at wei en's house..

I wanted to take a shot of wei en and his 17-year old lion.. but he keep moving, so i just took a shot of him and his lion.. who knows it's so unglam.. haha!! sorry wei en.. lol.. ruilin wanted me to wear his cap.. lol.. den take a photo of me with his cap.. haha.. that's how i will look when i am in the army.. haha.. if only my stamina is good and i am fit, den i'll join.. haha..

"If you love me, you will obey what I command." [John 14:15]

practising worship for cg

i really thank wei en, rui lin, loo and sheetino staying back to practise the worship with me.. i really have to thank rui lin.. he's supposed to have elec. guitar lesson at 8pm.. but due to the hectic school timetable, we seriously cannot meet up, except on thursday, which is like the caregroup day alr.. so despite his lessons, he still came to meet us, and was even late for his lessons.. another thing to thank him for is that he is rather patient with me la.. cuz i dunno much songs.. so it's like while choosing the songs, i juz like see which one can, and just tell him.. but the songs i choose juz doesn't match with the theme.. and he patiently guided me, and even helped me think of songs and teach me along the way.. for wei en, who is the future guitarist.. haha.. have to thank him for rushing home to bring his guitar to school after his econs test.. it's so good to have your house so near the school.. haha.. in the end, he rushed down.. and still playing the guitar in E105.. all ready before i went in.. and as for loo and shee ting..i have to thank them for staying back and accompanying me.. cuz their lessons end very early.. but the practise starts at around 7pm.. after my Econs E-programme end.. thank you for taking out your time to help me.. i really appreciate all of you and the efforts.. haha.. my love language is acts of service.. i somehow felt the warmth of a family.. supporting and encouraging one another.. this is how great Y JC EA 2b are!!! With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be. [James 3:9-10]

Today is my unlucky day!!

my unluckiness starts since morning.. all the way till now..!! argh.. i think only adi saw most parts of it.. from the morning bus, to canteen, to library, then now!!! now my eyes duno why kena rashes.. the allergic type.. but the thing is i nvr take panadol!!! argh..

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

[Psalm 91:1 ]