realise i super long haven post anything alr.. kinda dead.. this new cg is fun! just had the second cg today.. the activities was kinda different, but interesting.. today i shall post abt what i have learnt from sermon & what has impacted me ba.. since we did it for cg sermon-d today.. haha.. time to SHINE!! I can SHINE!! i always struggle from this problem.. belittling myself, which is equals to belittling God's creation. i always feel inadequate, not up to certain tasks, everyone is better than me i am not good, lack confidence.. but in actual fact, everyone is unique in his or her ways, God created everyone to be different so that each person can advance His kingdom in a certain way.. [this reminds me of one body, many parts, every part, be it big or small, significant or insignificant, is important. On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor. And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty, while our presentable parts need no special treatment. <1 Corinthians 12:12-26>] this is the verse God reminded.. yup.. and also, the pastor talked about God placing us in specific places for us to shine.. i really hope i can shine for God in not only nursing/friends, but also my family.. i remember one analogy he gives.. in a room with total darkness, one small torchlight that's switched on, can make a huge difference.. i really like this analogy.. God is light, satan is darkness.. in total darkness, so long as we follow God, we need not be perfect, but we can still shine for Him.. people around us can then see this light, and come to know God.. he also say that God who is faithful, will ensure we are the light of the world, even if we are broken.. Amen! God is faithful! He will ensure us to shine His light.. the next thing that impacted me a lot was the part on the areas that can stop us from this promise on shining for Him.. among the 3, the one that most represent me is fear.. like the few examples he gave was exactly how i always feel.. we don't have that confidence, fear that we are not better than others, we think we don't have what it takes to be God's light.. and we must step out of this fear, if not we can't step out in faith.. for me is, i am too controlled by fear, fearing i may do the wrong things, more of things that has to do with God.. i dunno how to phrase this.. err.. things like leading roles, asking questions during sowing.. ya.. when i have this fear/anxiousness, sometimes in human tendency, i will choose to take control of the situation to make things right, at the same time, fail to trust in God's power.. yup.. the last point is sometimes we tend to forget that God only wants us to contribute what we have only.. He knows we are limited, He know we cannot do all things, there's a verse about God doesn't judge a person like how the world does, God sees our heart, our motives instead of the results, how well we did.. i think that is really one thing i really thank God for God.. i want to live like Mary.. she focuses on God instead of the situations around her.. instead of Martha who focuses so much on the surroundings - preparations, doing things right.. yup.. God looks at heart.. so long as we desire to shine, WE WILL SHINE! i want to be God's light, not letting this fear gripped me.. but allowing God to shine His light through me, so the others will be able to see His light..