"Whoever can be trusted with very little can be trusted with much ... If you have not been trustworthy in handling worldly wealth, who will trust you with true riches? And if you have not been trustworthy with someone else's property, who will give you your own?" - Luke 16:10-12 (NIV)

i want my faith, my walk with God to be like this, and not, Up, Up and Up! [ignore all the words in the diagram]

Hey.. i am finding someone who was like the current me, where speaking out(in faith) is difficult.. And will get nervous easily when speaking, if the group is too big.. But has overcome this problem already.. Because, i wanna find out, how exactly did u manage to overcome it.. Lol.. cuz i am still struggling with this! Do tell me.. =)

Many times i failed God, i walked on my own path, and not God's path. Sorry Lord. Once again, i commit myself into your mighty hands. Protect me from the things that will pull me away from you, block the things that will cause me to stumble and fall. The feeling of being far away from you, the feeling of not meeting you, the feeling of not able to hear your whisper, is not at all pleasant! Lord, help me out in my walk with you. Give me to courage, the strength to persevere. Strengthen my faith. I want to walk with you everyday of my life, to talk with you in the good and the strife. i pray that nothing can keep us apart, You are the lover of my heart. you are the only one who will look at our hearts.

...FROM THE INSIDE OUT... A thousand times I've failed Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again I'm caught in Your grace Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame Your will above all else My purpose remains The art of losing myself In bringing You praise Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame In my heart and my soul Lord I give You control Consume me from the inside out Lord let justice and praise Become my embrace To love you from the inside out

thank you for showing me Isaiah chapter 1.. thank you for reminding me about how much i failed to understand and obey your words, where i end up getting hurt.. i can see how much you love us when u said that i reared children and brought them up, but they rebelled against me. i may not understand fully how u feel, but i know it must have hurt u and disappoint u a lot. many times, when i fail to understand ur plans, i chose to walk on my own path. sorry god.i give u my heart and my soul, i give u control. change me, help to to love u from the inside out..

Courage.. That's what i lack.. That's also what i need to glorify the KOG.. Ask and it'll be given..

Lover of my heart

All I want is to see Your face

All I need is a moment of grace

It is in You, that I have the faith

To stand up and be strong

‘Cause I know I’m no longer bound

It is in You that I have found

Peace of mind, freedom from my sin

And the power to love and forgive

Chorus:

I want to walk with You

Everyday of my life

To talk with You

In the good and the strife

You’re my Friend

You’re my Father

For all time

Nothing can keep us apart

You’re the lover of my Heart

i realise i worry a lot this few weeks.. i feel so burdened.. 1) when i bring ansel to church.. whether he will convert, whether he feel god, whether he has really accepted christ, whether he has met god, whether he wants to commit to god, whether he wanna joins the group, etc etc.. 2) about my brother in hospital..[but he's getting well, will be discharged tml] whether he's getting well, whether he will feel better, whether he'll feel loved, whether he'll recover, whether his pain will be gone, whether he knows god, whether he wanna accept christ, whether i am able to bring him to know god, etc etc 3) jontay's cousin, thuogh i dunno him, but i found out my mum know his cousin's mum.. whether he will recover even when the doctors know nothing much abt the illness, whether the parents will accept christ, whether they'll trust in god, etc etc 4) about CG, whether ppl has met god, whether they have feel they are not left out, whether they feel loved, whether they are in tune with god, etc etc 5) studies.. whether i can do well in A levels with the current sucky results, whether i am able to enter uni, whether i can be a good salt and light, etc etc.. 6) my friends.. whether i can bring them to know god, whether i can open up their hearts, whether i am able to show them how great is god, etc etc 7) myself.. whether the songs i am choosing is right, whether the songs i am choosing are able to minister to the ppl, whether i am staying close with god, whether i am able to be a good salt and light for god, whether i can be what god has created me to be, whether i really trust god for all circumstances, etc etc. So much worries, no wonder i get so many pimples! but i rmb one sermon/teaching.. you'll worry because u dun trust in god's plan. u feel insecure of the future. we must rmb that god is always in control, no matter the outcome/circumstances. GOD IS IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING.. rmb that.. now that i've know it in my mind, i have to apply it into my heart.. i shall throw my worries to god, for he says [1 Peter 5:7] Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Today is my MOST embarrassing day!! so many weird things happen.. 3 times i got scare by some things for nothing.. That basket with newspaper, that fish on my plate, that SHEETING! haix.. i feel so stupid now! it's like there should be nothing to get shock de, but i dunno why my body just react that way.. WHY?! DA BIAN! 3 times! fish, point at wall, "little red riding hood"..

By Your Wondrous Love By your wondrous love By your amazing grace By your precious blood All my life's forever changed Saviour of my soul Your touch has made me whole Your kingdom lives in me My heart is filled with joy and peace Chorus: Now I am your own I lift my hands and sing I bow before your throne And worship You my glorious King Now I am redeemed My soul shall ever be You bled and died for me And You alone are worthy Bridge: Worthy, worthy Worthy is the lamb of God Holy, holy Holy is the lamb of God

We Are The Reason As little children we would dream of Christmas morn Of all the gifts and toys we knew we’d find But we never realized a baby born one blessed night Gave us the greatest gift of our lives *We were the reason that He gave His life We were the reason that He suffered and died To a world that was lost He gave all He could give To show us the reason to live As the years went by we learned more about gifts The giving of ourselves and what that means On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain All because of love All because of love *Chorus I finally found the reason for living It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him (every part to Him) And all that I do every word that I say (you know I’ll be saying) I’ll be giving my all just for Him, for Him (every thing for Him) We are the reason that He gave His life We are the reason that He suffered and died To a world that was lost He gave all He could give (all that he could give all) To show us the reason to live #He is the reason to live (don’t you know do you know the reason that he came, oh he came to save us when he gave his life for us) he suffered and died To a world that was lost He gave everything (everything that He had He gave) To show us the reason to live *chorus + # together Don’t know how I could thank Jesus all that he had all.. *chorus + # together

was reading james' blog some time ago, i think in the morning, den this paragraph really reminded me quite a lot of things..

" and I’m highlighting this in my notes: ‘we cannot underestimate what we’re doing, it has significance on our people’. every bit, bit by bit. one day, those bits and pieces will piece together and finally complete God’s work. to those who are worrying, keep holding on, keep believing, because:

Ignoring what they said, Jesus told the synagogue ruler, “Don’t be afraid; just believe.” "

Many times, i always think i am insignificant, no matter what i do is always insignificant.. That really lower my self-confidence and self-esteem a lot.. So when i was reading james' blog, and i read this, i remembered this verse.. [1 Corinthians 12:4-6, 12 - 31] 4There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit. 5There are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. 6There are different kinds of working, but the same God works all of them in all men.

12The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ. 13For we were all baptized by one Spirit into one body—whether Jews or Greeks, slave or free—and we were all given the one Spirit to drink.

14Now the body is not made up of one part but of many. 15If the foot should say, "Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body," it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 16And if the ear should say, "Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body," it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 17If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be? 18But in fact God has arranged the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. 19If they were all one part, where would the body be? 20As it is, there are many parts, but one body.

21The eye cannot say to the hand, "I don't need you!" And the head cannot say to the feet, "I don't need you!" 22On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, 23and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor. And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty, 24while our presentable parts need no special treatment. But God has combined the members of the body and has given greater honor to the parts that lacked it, 25so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. 26If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it.

27Now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it. 28And in the church God has appointed first of all apostles, second prophets, third teachers, then workers of miracles, also those having gifts of healing, those able to help others, those with gifts of administration, and those speaking in different kinds of tongues. 29Are all apostles? Are all prophets? Are all teachers? Do all work miracles? 30Do all have gifts of healing? Do all speak in tongues? Do all interpret? 31But eagerly desire the greater gifts.

as what james said, every bit, bit by bit. one day, those bits and pieces will piece together and finally complete God’s work. Like a jigsaw puzzle, what does 1 piece of the puzzle means? seems nothing? but think again, without it, how can u complete a picture? Every effort, every things we does, seems like nothing in the kingdom.. Not exactly nothing, but it seems just so minute (like an ant in the garden.. haha.. i dun like ants..) But in the end, it could be just that effort that we made, that we have made certain things possible.. For example(just an example), u are wearing a cross pendant, and on the bus, u gave up ur seat to an elderly.. She sees the cross, and that leaves an impression that christians are good.. That small little effort could have planted a good seed in her.. Who knows, she will get converted.. Everything is possible with that small little effort.. Yup..

Why God places us in a community? Not only to feed off one another's passion, but also to help one another grow stronger in God.. Like how to tackle the problems u are facing.. Recently, like a few days ago, many things happen, it makes me somehow grow much much lesser in God.. Today had shepherding.. I can either choose to share or not to share, everyone has their choices.. But God places us in a community, so we can help one another rite? When we start to think negatively, we tend to see things mainly on the pessimistic side.. So there's this chinese saying "pang guan ze kan de zui qing" (not very sure of the exact words, but it means that those around u can see much clearer than u.. (smth like that, if u understand) So we must share, so that the problems we faced will not hinder us from our walk with God.. i was somehow struggling to share that problem, but thank God i shared.. And at least, now i can see things on a much clearer perspective.. Friday here i come.. Emmanuel..

Trading my sorrows

I'm trading my sorrow I'm trading my shame I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord I'm trading my sickness I'm trading my pain I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord

Chorus: And we say yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Amen I'm pressed but not crushed persecuted not abandoned Struck down but not destroyed I'm blessed beyond the curse for his promise will endure And his joy's gonna be my strength Though the sorrow may last for the night His joy comes with the morning

God will make a way

God will make a way Where there seems to be no way He works in ways we cannot see He will make a way for me

He will be my guide Hold me closely to His side With love and strength for each new day He will make a way He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness He'll lead me And rivers in the desert will I see Heaven and earth will fade But His word will still remain He will do something new today.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ This is a rather old song.. heard it long ago.. But today, as in just, when looking through iTunes, i chanced upon this song.. i played.. i am so touched and so glad that God will never leave me or forsake me.. i am really touched to tears.. this just hits me so much so much so much.. i dunno how to describe.. again, His assurance for me, in this most depressing moments in my life.. again and again He assured me.. Lord, i am sorry for making u disappointed again and again.. Fail to bring that glory to your kingdom.. I will entrust all to ur hands.. ALL! i will try, definitely.. i believe YOU will make a way for me.. You have won my heart!! You are the only one who gave up your life for me.. No one else does.. You bear all the guilt and shame, just for all of us! Thank You Lord! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

You laid aside Your majesty

You laid aside Your majesty Gave up everything for me Suffered at the hands of those You have created You took all my guilt and shame When You died and rose again Now today You reign in heaven and earth exalted I really want to worship You my God You have won my heart and I am Yours Forever and ever I will love You You are the only one who died for me Gave Your life to set me free So I lift my voice to you in adoration

i can die in one day.. after taking back all those disgusting results.. lol..

i admire that lady with so much courage, which can and only comes from God.. and her last sentence "Jesus cannot come back until the gospel is spread into the corner of the earth"

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound, That saved a wretch like me.... I once was lost but now am found, Was blind, but now, I see. T'was Grace that taught... my heart to fear. And Grace, my fears relieved. How precious did that Grace appear... the hour I first believed. Through many dangers, toils and snares... we have already come. T'was Grace that brought us safe thus far... and Grace will lead us home. The Lord has promised good to me... His word my hope secures. He will my shield and portion be... as long as life endures. When we've been here ten thousand years... bright shining as the sun. We've no less days to sing God's praise... then when we've first begun. "Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound, That saved a wretch like me.... I once was lost but now am found, Was blind, but now, I see.

Complete Here I am, Oh God I bring this sacrifice, my open heart I offer up my life I look to You, Lord Your Love that never ends Restores me again CHORUS: So I lift my eyes to you, Lord In Your Strength will I break through, Lord Touch me now, let Your Love fall down on me I know Your Love dispels all my fears Through the storm I will hold on, Lord And by faith I will walk on, Lord Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day And I will be complete in You

Cal·va·ry :

1.	Golgotha, the place where Jesus was crucified. Luke 23:33.

2.	a sculptured representation of the Crucifixion, usually erected in the open air.

3.	an experience or occasion of extreme suffering, esp. mental suffering.

Was finding ideas on games online, then after some time, started reading christian articles online.. and then was chatting with timothy, and the conversation still hasn't ended.. in the past, talking about my spiritual giftings, nic and shee ting did tell me how is it good, all those.. i understood at that time, not to feel discouraged all those.. Today, while chatting with timothy, we talked about our spiritual giftings too.. Suddenly, God spoke this to me, and reminded me some stuff.. He said this to me : see, everyone's different, everyone's special.. i have created everyone differently.. You are special.. look at my creation, it's just so wonderful.. at that point, i was really touched by God.. and i realised how am i different, and how great is God's creation.. Thank God for all u have created..