combined cg....

today caregroup was fun!! and kim posted the questions really set me into thinking deeper.. yes, i have a burden, but i just dunno, i just cannot convinced with my testimonies... aren't my testimonies impactful?? to me, these small blessings, are a blessings.. but why ppl just see it so differently?? and sheeting asked 2b to write on the mahjong paper the names right..? i juz realized there's like so many ppl that i have not reach out to.. or they juz keep rejecting.. haix.. Gos will help me out somehow.. i trust in Him.. and worship, though i dun really know how to sing the first song, but i really believed that i should let go of myself, and not take too much control of my life, instead, submit it into God's hands, since he has the best plans for me..

Flooding again!!

My bag was flooded again!! The other time was in the cafe, now on the bus.. all at so diu lian places.. argh!!! the thing is that my bottled is change.. i think is i never close the cap properly loh.. this time is on the bus with zolene to tm, on the way to makan.. then, i sense that my bag is wet.. i was like thinking, dun tell me my bottle leak again.. grr... luckily, i today drank quite a lot of water, so the flood wasn't that bad.. haha..

Wisdom teeth

You know what, my surgery to extract the wisdom teeth, which are super irritating, have been postponed again and again.. cuz of the events.. initially was at may 25, but was pushed to june 10, due to lessons in school.. and cuz of the Oasis camp, the extraction was pushed to a further date, not confirmed yet... argh! my gum really hurts la..!! boohoo!! pain, pain, pain!!

i was like thinking that novelty event is rather a waste a waste of time, though it may be fun at that moment, especially with Jasmine, doing that 3-legged race.. then, i was like praying before the morning assembly and for the past few days.. God, i really don't wanna have the novelty lei.. some more, it's rather "throw face".. den, after the morning assembly, yanni tell me we're not in the novelty thing.. she say the online msg never put.. woohoo.. Thank God!

Tml combined cg!!

Looking forward to the cg tml!! Tpjc caregroup was split into 2.. the A(punehneh) and B(ananas).. [lol] tml is the combined caregroup..

refer to [Ecclesiastes 7:14]

¹⁴ When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.

God allows both good times and bad times to come.. He blends them in our lives in such a way that we can't predict the future or count on human wisdom and power. We usually give ourselves credit for the good times. Then in bad times, we tend to blame God without thanking Him for the good that comes out of it. When life appears certain and controllable, don't let self-satisfaction or complacency make you too comfortable, or God may allow bad times to drive you back to Him. When life seems uncertain and uncontrollable, don't despair - God is in control and will bring good results out of your struggles. (was reading the life application bible and i saw this)

"who we are is god's gift to us, what we become is our gift to god"

Stupid fear overcame..

lol.. i have overcame a stupid fear of mine.. haha.. u know when u wash ur face with the facial foam rite, it'll be white wad.. so last time, after i wash, i dare not look into the mirror de.. but now.. i dare alr.. haha..

My soul yearns for you in the night; in the morning my spirit longs for you. When your judgments come upon the earth, the people of the world learn righteousness.[Isaiah 26:9]

unbelievable..

whoa.. let me tell u all something.. i was like ushering at glass door of nexus.. den i was like giving out the flyers for oasis camp(!!), then i was like busy giving out to everyone (everyone would wanna have it rite?) den jasmine came to me tell me i am the UA for camp.. and told me it's like collecting money all those.. den she went off.. and cuz i have to give out to the ppl entering (which is like a lot at that moment), so i didn't really think abt it much.. my response was like "orh.. ok.. collect money only ar.. ok lohx.." (that kind la..) and after the service ended, got UA meeting.. i was late for it though (cuz i duno there was a meet).. (all the ppl there i dunno them at all) initially i went, and that i was like finding familiar faces from EA.. and the paper passed around to write the names, i only found one EA slot.. i was like how to squeeze the names of the UA of VJC, MJC, and TJC.. den i never give much thought of it.. (i never even think of the UA=UNIT administrator..) sitting in front of me is my DA and another UA of some JC.. after the meet, we walked to the lift.. i keep asking them questions abt the collection of money all those la.. It was in the lift then i realised that i have to collect from the whole unit!! i was like thinking "oh my gosh.. whole unit!! so many..!! i thought for TPJC cg only!!" i was utterly shocked.. i think that 2 girls is like "u mean u dunno.. lol.." den i remembered i always prayed to God, asking Him to use me more and that i want to contribute more to the caregroup.. (not only support, decorating and stuff..) and i prayed that during service too.. He did answered my prayers... i was like thinking throughout the whole time after i realised i'm doing for the whole unit.. cuz after i know it, i was like super stress.. (dun ask me why.. i duno either) i am afraid i cannot do a good job.. then this sermon point came into my mind.. "god knows our potential is great, knows we wanna excel in his kingdom and as a result, will push us beyond our limits" (from the point: God exercises tender love & tough love towards those he loves) i think God wanna tell me that he give me this job cuz i had always wanted him to use me for greater things.. i felt assured that he still uses me, but at the same time, keep thinking "i am not able", den michelle loo told me something like cast all your stress onto him.. den i another thought came into my mind "God says: i am able" and the verse "Cast all your cares upon him for he cares for you".. At Le Meridian, Ruilin told me something stupid.. He says: Jasmine told us that joyce was the UA for camp.. den he replied saying that are u sure.. or something like that la.. sheeting, after some time, asked jasmine "joyce is UA?" and was shocked.. when ppl know that i am UA, i duno why they were shocked.. i duno why am i shocked too.. (Everyone was just shocked.. lol..) after hearing wad he had said, i feel like laughing.. haha.. till now, i still have a burning question "out of so many ppl in the unit, how come i was chosen?" as in just curious.. it's not i dun wanna do.. it like i'd never thought i will be given such a role, cuz i'm not a CL, i have not join the church for more than 1 year, i'm not in core team and all the weird thoughts la.. i am very curious.. haha..

How can a young man keep his way pure? By living according to your word. [Psalm 119:9]

my foolscape..

my angel..

from my angel.. haha.. nice chocolate.. thanx a lot.. oya.. angel mortal game rite, not supposed to say out de lei.. Kim.. haha.. ur another mortal is zolene.. lol.. she say u also tell her u are her angel.. haha.. Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners -- of whom I am the worst. [1 Timothy 1:15]

Stupid things we do while waiting for the 4pm bio to start..

they are first, discussing whose nose is fatter, and whose is longer.. so they are like "fighting" over the ruler.. haha.. clement measured his nose.. the width is like 4cm, length is like 5 cm.. super long la.. with disbelief, he asked amerce to measure for him, indeed it's the 4cm and 5cm.. amerce asked clement to help him measure.. his is the opposite of clement's.. his nose width is 5cm, and length is 4cm.. the whole thing was like super funny and super unglam.. we are like so so so stupid doing these kinda stuff.. and guess what clement and amerce do after they measured the nose? unexpected.. they calculated the volume of their nose.. using the formula to calculate volume of cone.. guess wad everyone is doing.. lol.. we're measuring the size of our eyes.. me, sabrina, amerce, nathan(only measure his nose) and yvonne(got forced).. haha.. yea.. i dun have the smallest eyes le.. yvonne has the smallest eyes..!! then amerce, then me.. woo.. i feel a sense of satisfaction.. haha.. yvonne's eyes is like 0.6cm, mine abt 0.8 to 0.9cm(cuz i duno why it varies all the time, when i measure it's 1cm loh.. haha..) amerce's is like 0.7cm.. sabrina's abt 0.8 to 1cm.. clement's one is the largest.. 1.1 or 1.2cm.. aiyo.. sabrina so "demure".. saw her leg ?? guess wad she's doing? trying to kiss a frog.. lol..

Answered prayers!!

normally throughout a day of lessons, i will fall asleep in class at least once.. so today, while taking the bus, while taking the bus, and while i was walking to the stadium for morning assembly, i prayed to God that he will provide me with the strength to like really concentrate and focus today.. and miraculously, i really kept awake throughout all the lessons today, without feeling tired.. woohoo! PRAISE GOD MAN.. ppl, u all should try too.. haha.. and today lessons was like ended at abt 1 plus, but have to wait till 4pm for bio lessons which ends at 5.30 plus.. haha.. i didn't sleep!! Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners -- of whom I am the worst. [1 Timothy 1:15]

cg..cg..cg..

caregroup yesterday was fun and warm.. the games.. i feel that my reaction is super slow la.. michelle loo, why must u choose a game that requires reaction.. lol.. den worship.. wei en play until leg cramp/numb.. and he can't move.. ans we found another guitarist in our cg.. who is..... Zhu Yin!!! oya.. sermon-d we all shared our areas of sruggle/problems out, so that we all can work together and help one another to grow more.. almost everyone shared.. as seen below, the covenant of cg.. we really are covenanted to be honest, open and trust one another, that's why we shared.. after sharing each of our own problems, the others will then provide constructive feedback to one another.. the feedback was indeed useful.. i am trying to do what u all have suggested.. thnx ppl.. now that we know one another needs, let us encourage them in one way or another.. be it big or small actions.. every actions and thoughts counts.. and this is also why God gave us this family.. [Hebrews 3:13] - but encourage one another daily as long as it is called today. [From JC east A blog] the covenant of the cg:

we're Covenanted to affirm and accept one another; we're Covenanted to be available to one another; we're Covenanted to pray for one another regularly; we're Covenanted to be honest and open and trust one another; we're Covenanted to provide constructive feedback to one another; we're Covenanted to be sensitive to the needs of one another; we're Covenanted to maintain confidentiality within the cg;

Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners -- of whom I am the worst. [1 Timothy 1:15]

flooded...

Haha.. am too tired to blog yesterday.. yesterday is like a super embarrassing day la.. my whole bag was flooded internally.. the water in my bottle was left with like abt 250cm^3, and i think i never cap it properly.. in the end the whole bag was literally flooded with water.. it's like i didn't notice it... we were like eating potato and vincent was holding my bag.. and at that moment he realised my bag was dripping water.. (vincent commented smth stupid too.. he says maybe God wants me to build a Noah's ark) cuz i was at the cafe.. and abt half of the cafe was filled with ppl and on the same table, was my friends, and some ppl i dunno, which are their friends la.. that stupid vincent, seriously did something very stupid.. my pencil case was not the waterproof type, can be considered as the spongy type.. so it absorb the water in my bag.. he took it out, the water flowed down.. and he "keep" it into my bag again.. and to removed the water, cuz the cafe was like so many ppl, i dun dare to juz pour out the water, so i take a stack of serviettes from the cafe, to slowly absorb the water in my bag and throw the tissue away..vincent helped me out, cuz he was like sitting beside me.. and cuz the tissue was soaked, obviously it'll dripped water rite? he juz drip over my potato.. grrr.. after the whole of cleaning up, i ate the potato.. when i put the potato into my mouth, shee ting and vincent were like...isn't it dirty alr? Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners -- of whom I am the worst. [1 Timothy 1:15]

My wisdom teeth

so pain.. why must ppl have wisdom teeth.. how i hope all this wisdom juz grow in my brain, and not on the teeth.. lol.. damn pain la.. make me lose my appetite for the whole day.. not exactly lose la, but it's just so pain.. i keep biting the gum of my right cheek.. argh!! my surgery is actually on may, but it's postponed, due to the remedial and stuff!! i have to suffer this pain for a longer time.. i seriously wonder how god suffer all the trials sia.. if i were god, u all can forget abt salvation alr.. haha.. This is also why, because of this great love, that we honour him, love him, praise him....... love him like he first loved us..

"If you love me, you will obey what I command." [John 14:15]

god helped me find my songs..

tell u all something very cool.. i was like finding the song "to the ends of the earth" in my music folder.. in this folder, there's like many other folders.. and i can't find the song.. cuz it's used for worship, so i'm advised to put the songs into my mobile phone.. after that, i just said to God, it goes like "god, help me find.. i dun wanna trouble other ppl.." then, that instant, i turned on my speaker.. and i duno why a music is playing from i-tunes, the song "with all i am".. the moment i saw this title, i immediately found the song i wanted.. cuz it's like 4 songs below "with all i am".. woohoo..

"If you love me, you will obey what I command." [John 14:15]

after practising worship at wei en's house..

I wanted to take a shot of wei en and his 17-year old lion.. but he keep moving, so i just took a shot of him and his lion.. who knows it's so unglam.. haha!! sorry wei en.. lol.. ruilin wanted me to wear his cap.. lol.. den take a photo of me with his cap.. haha.. that's how i will look when i am in the army.. haha.. if only my stamina is good and i am fit, den i'll join.. haha..

"If you love me, you will obey what I command." [John 14:15]

practising worship for cg

i really thank wei en, rui lin, loo and sheetino staying back to practise the worship with me.. i really have to thank rui lin.. he's supposed to have elec. guitar lesson at 8pm.. but due to the hectic school timetable, we seriously cannot meet up, except on thursday, which is like the caregroup day alr.. so despite his lessons, he still came to meet us, and was even late for his lessons.. another thing to thank him for is that he is rather patient with me la.. cuz i dunno much songs.. so it's like while choosing the songs, i juz like see which one can, and just tell him.. but the songs i choose juz doesn't match with the theme.. and he patiently guided me, and even helped me think of songs and teach me along the way.. for wei en, who is the future guitarist.. haha.. have to thank him for rushing home to bring his guitar to school after his econs test.. it's so good to have your house so near the school.. haha.. in the end, he rushed down.. and still playing the guitar in E105.. all ready before i went in.. and as for loo and shee ting..i have to thank them for staying back and accompanying me.. cuz their lessons end very early.. but the practise starts at around 7pm.. after my Econs E-programme end.. thank you for taking out your time to help me.. i really appreciate all of you and the efforts.. haha.. my love language is acts of service.. i somehow felt the warmth of a family.. supporting and encouraging one another.. this is how great Y JC EA 2b are!!! With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be. [James 3:9-10]

Today is my unlucky day!!

my unluckiness starts since morning.. all the way till now..!! argh.. i think only adi saw most parts of it.. from the morning bus, to canteen, to library, then now!!! now my eyes duno why kena rashes.. the allergic type.. but the thing is i nvr take panadol!!! argh..

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

[Psalm 91:1 ]

my shepherd - (classic)

dun see her blur blur one.. haha.. she teaches me very well..

YJCEA2 Project Tshirt

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Pink..

My love language..

lol.. i went to do the love language survey.. cuz i really dunno which one is the primary one.. and shee ting still guess that my love language is "touch".. nah! prove u wrong.. haha.. but u touch me, i will still feel touched de la.. haha.. (that sentence a bit er xin hoh? haha..) Profile Results

Score	Love Language
6	Words of Affirmation
8	Quality Time
8	Receiving of Gifts
7	Acts of Service
1	Physical Touch

oya.. if u guys wanna try out ur love language also.. here's the link: http://www.greaterquest.com/LoveLanguages.asp

How to interpret your Profile Score:

Your highest score indicates your primary love language. Your second highest score indicates your secondary lovelanguage. If two scores are identical, you are bilingual (you have two primary love languages). If the scores of your primary and your secondary language are close (for example, 10 & 9 respectfully), it indicates both are important toyou. Whatever a significant other does to express love in either of these languages will get emotional points with you.The highest possible score for any language is 12.

Having a clear picture of your primary & secondary love languages will explain much of your past behavior Think back over the past and ask yourself "What have I most often requested from significant others?" Chances are your answerwill lie within the scope of your primary & secondary love languages. You have been requesting that which would meet your deepest need for emotional love.

my saturday...

today i really have to thank kim, sheetino and loo.. they really encouraged me a lot a lot!! i always have to question, like whether i should reserve myself or express myself in front of visitors.. but due to my short-term memory, i always forget.. haha.. but kim somehow told me.. she say that we shld let ppl see our conviction, our joy for god.. and she prayed for me too.. and after my spending like hours telling my visitor about Christ, he somehow have no response.. i was feeling quite terrible at that moment.. i told my problem to shee ting and michelle.. they both encouraged me.. i really felt more relieved now.. and that i will see things from the other point of view now.. i really thank u all man.. you have really made my day, which seems to be crashing that moment.. and i think god really draw me even closer to Him after the talk with ansel(my visitor).. God really made me feel: (i) how close am i to this spiritual family.. (this is also why when i hear the "i love this family of god" i will cry.. haha..) (ii) how great is god.. (iii) how my spiritual family supported me, encouraged me and brought me lots of joy.. i really have to thank god for this wonderful experience which i had never really gave so much thought to it before.. it is just so wonderful to have true, genuine Christian friends around.. i am just so touched after that.. and i will definitely treasure the time together.. people who have never had this kinda feeling before, let me tell you, it's just so wonderful.. haha.. and as u know rite, our cg is playing the angel-mortal game.. then, it seems like our cg dunno how to play the game at all!! haha.. wei en told sheeting that her angel is livert.. and kim told me she's my angel when she passed me hershey chocolate.. haha.. thanks a lot! feel loved.. haha.. but my mortal is quite stupid la.. haha.. nvm..

i felt so loved!!

today was like i felt very helpless intially but in the end, i felt loved..!! the thing is that our cg planned to do a study kit for kim.. den i was like asking cai xuan, and several others, but they cannot make it..(which also means that i have to do it somehow alone) and michelle loo never answer her hp.. if she nvr ans, it means that i can't go her house to do, cuz the box was in her house.. at that moment, i was like "why must i do this alone again.. argh.." So i went to tampines mall to buy the materials required.. the first shop i headed to is popular.. but it closed!! and shifted to open plaza.. when i went there, all the things i needed were not found.. i was quite pissed at that moment.. i complained to God at that moment, and was thinking "is god testing me or wad?" so i just went to mini toons to buy some wrapping papers.. and off i went to michelle loo's house.. then i prayed that " i really hope that things will turned out better.." So i really felt loved when despite her being sick, she still helped me a lot.. and her mum was like very funny and super lame la..! and even help me to wrap some parts of the box.. then next is her brother keep complaining that he can't put in his contacts and loo still help him put his contacts.. So sweet! den i was like laughing to myself.. and when i was hungry, loo cooked maggi for me.. which i really felt thankful for.. and i still drank milo and coffee.. and i really treat her place as my own.. haha! cuz i bathed in her house.. and she said to her mum.. "today u have one more daughter alr.." the whole process of the doing of the box just make me feel like i this cg is really like a family.. and that the love u can feel is just so genuine.. aww.. this is the study kit..

WooHoo!! caregroup is fun today! firstly is the games.. Rui lin kena forfeit..*3 cheers* that the consequences for targeting me! and also for suaning me.. haha! His forfeit is........ putting a flower into his mouth and dancing tango(i supposed is this type of dance).. i show you all.. first, he puts the flower.. (he seemed to enjoy that) Then he posed!! (Do i look pretty?) oya.. our caregroup had also started the angel-mortal game.. lol.. guess who's my mortal.. should i consider that person unlucky? Unlucky den unlucky ba.. hope that the person can feel blessed can already.. haha.. i hope my angel can show him/herself.. haha.. caregroup was fun.. how i just wish that everyday is cg day.. surrounded by family/children of God.. it's just so wonderful... you will never know till you've tried it.. =) kim mentions " spiritual warfare".. so let's fight against the devil.. And the devil is very sickening.. always "attack" us when we are growing.. and i really hope there will really be a change in the remedial timings.. i believe God will choose one day to let us all be free.. such that cg will always be held on that day without much disruptions... Oh.. today during worship, God drop me a word.. initially, i was like.. oh my gosh, i dun dare to speak out.. but in the end i just say despite being super anxious.. (i can't speak in front of many ppl.. dun ask me why.. i duno..) God says like surrender fully to his plan.. and surrender everything we have, such that He can use it for His plans.. When we entrust them into God's hands, will the results then be a godly results.. God+you=fruit..

<< my precious >>

See the complicated r/s bet them.. lol..

Some pictures taken a few days ago..

Me and Cai xuan shared a burger.. haha.. Vincent is so unglam! he tries to copy me to blow his fringe.. which apparently failed!! haha..

a HAPPY day... =)

Today the dialogue session was in Audi.. and my seat was w/o tables, plus the air-con is super cold, making it so difficult to sleep.. before the session start, ansel and clement(sitting behind me) was like saying smth abt church.. so i just popped a qns to ansel, and ask if he wanna come to y-hope this sat, and he agreed! he's a believe, but have parental objections and had no church.. so i really hope that by bringing him to y-hope, i am able to bring him closer to god, having a personal relationship with God.. there's rehearsal for the novelty event at 3pm, quite a stupid thing, but it's so hilarous.. amerce and ruilin paired up.. since both of them had no partners at that moment.. novelty event is split into many sub-events.. one of it was that 1 softball had to be placed between 2 foreheads.. amerce said he wanted a difficult task, so i suggested that he and ruilin go for this.. lol.. But sadly, ruilin violently objected.. haha.. i'm thinking, how will they look like when they went for that.. then me and jasmine.. we do the 3-legged thing.. we're super noob at that.. we keep falling.. got once, she fell on me.. and there's like so many ppl.. argh.. super embarrassing.. haha..

When God Ran..

This song is not only nice but meaningful..[it hit me a lot] And u see all the pictures in the video..

Almighty God, the great I am Immovable rock, omnipotent, powerful, awesome Lord Victorious warrior, commanding King of Kings Mighty conqueror, and the only time the only time I ever saw Him run

CHORUS: Was when He ran to me, He took me in His arms Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again” Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes With forgiveness in His voice He said, “Son do you know I still love you?” He caught me by surprise when God ran

The day I left home I knew I’d broken His heart And I wondered then if things could ever be the same Then one night I remembered His love for me And down that dusty road ahead I could see It was the only time – it was the only time I ever saw Him run

And then He ran to me, He took me in His arms Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again” Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes With forgiveness in His voice He said, “Son do you know I still love you?” He caught me by surprise as He brought me to my knees When God ran – I saw Him run to me

BRIDGE: I was so ashamed, all alone and so far away But now I know He’s been waiting for this day

I saw Him run to me, He took me in His arms Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again” Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes With forgiveness in His voice I felt His love for me again

He ran to me, He took me in His arms Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again” Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes With forgiveness in His voice He said, “Son”, He called me Son He said, “Son do you know I still love you?” He ran to me and then I ran to Him When God ran

Answered prayers!!

Hey! I managed to create a blog.. Woo! So happy!! u know why? cuz i never knew how to blog! and until now i still dunno how to post a video.. grr.. [ someone pls teach me (: ] DesireeKim Hi i'm MIK. says(1.57AM): blog noob =p u know what.. answered prayers are so wonderful.. and it's just so miraculous..! tell u all what happen! yesterday wei en send me a sms saying: " can bring the chinese textbook tomorrow? thnx.." then i remembered i said i will give him.. but i haven go and find it.. then i search my entire room for the chinese textbooks.. i search in 2 cupboards, 3 drawers.. And i realised i couldn't find it.. i search for a long time.. i was like thinking, " Oh no! How?! i promised him already, and now i said i dun have it? oh no! oh no!" and i went to search again.. and i went to one particular cupboard(where almost all the past year notes are) and find over and over again.. but i juz couldn't find it.. out of the so many times i find in the cupboard i juz cannot find.. den after spending like 20 to 30 mins finding it, and the time was like 9 plus and i haven done my tutorials, then i somehow gave up searching for it already.. and replied wei en that i am sorry and i cannot find the textbook.. it was after i sent out that sms, i prayed to God.. my prayer went like this, "God, can you help me find the book? i really dun want to make empty promises.. and i really hope u can help me find it.. please God.." Then the Cool part starts here..!! after making that prayer, i went to that cupboard again.. this time round, somehow i just found the book!! i was like stunned at that moment i found the book.. haha!