Thursday, May 28

Still - Hillsong Hide me now Under your wings Cover me within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar I will soar with you above the storm Father you are king over the flood I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul In Christ alone Know his power In quietness and trust

Many times we say God, i surrender my life to you... God i trust you.. I trust in your plans.. but is the trust a head-trust, or heart-trust?? When He carry out His plans, do we still trust in Him? His plans may or may not be pleasant to you at that moment.. But we all know His plans are there to prosper us, not to harm us.. Do we hold on to that promise God gave? Do we blame God for our situation and choose to walk away and go our own way? in the bible, job, though he did tell God his honest feelings, complain, but he still trust.. even if it means physical death, he will still choose God's way, because he knows that's the best way.. So when we say surrender our life to Him, it's a very big promise to God.. It's like a child telling the mother he wants a toy, but when the mother give him a toy, he got angry saying this isn't what he wants.. the child may think he's right, but how does the mother feel? "you want, i give you, now u blame me, and you dun want it.. what exactly do you want?" not a good example.. but u get the meaning la.. trusting is never easy, this is where faith comes in.. faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.. how strong is your faith? can it endure the uncertainties? we may question why this happen, but do we doubt God's motive for doing so?
2 stories to share..

Trials

You perhaps recall the story of the blacksmith who gave his heart to God. Though conscientious in his living, still he was not prospering materially. In fact, it seems that from the time of his conversion more trouble, affliction and loss were sustained than ever before. Everything seemed to be going wrong.

One day a friend who was not a Christian stopped at the little gorge to talk to him. Sympathizing with him in some of his trials, the friend said "It seems strange to me that so much affliction should pass over you just at the time when you have become an earnest Christian. Of course, I don't want to weaken your faith in God or anything like that. But here you are, God's help and guidance, and yet things seem to be getting steadily worse. I can't help wondering why it is."

The blacksmith did not answer immediately, and it was evident that he had thought the same question before. But finally, he said "You see here the raw iron which I have to make into horse's shoes. You know what I do with it? I take a piece and heat it in the fire until it is red, almost white with the heat. Then I hammer it unmercifully to shape it as I know it should be shaped. Then I plunge it into a pail of cold water to temper it. Then I heat it again and hammer it some more. And this I do until it is finished."

"But sometimes I find a piece of iron that won't stand up under this treatment. The heat and the hammering and the cold water are too much for it. I don't know why it fails in the process, but I know it will never make a good horse's shoe."

He pointed to a heap of scrap iron that was near the door of his shop. "When I get a piece that cannot take the shape and temper, I throw it out on the scrap heap. It will never be good for anything."

He went on, "I know that God has been holding me in the fires of affliction and I have felt His hammer upon me. But I don't mind, if only He can bring me to what I should be. And so, in all these hard things my prayer is simply this: Try me in any way you wish, Lord, only don't throw me on the scrap heap."

- Lynell Waterman

Things aren't always what they seem

Two traveling angels stopped to spend the night in the home of a wealthy family. The family was rude and refused to let the angels stay in the mansion's guest room. Instead, the angels were given a space in the cold basement. As they made their bedroom the hard floor, the older angel saw a hole in the wall and repaired it. When the younger angel asked why, the older angel replied.... "Things aren't always what they seem."

The next night the pair came to rest at the house of a very poor, but very hospitable farmer and his wife. After sharing what little food they had, the couple let the angels sleep in their bed where they could have a good nights' rest. When the sun came up the next morning the angels found the farmer and his wife in tears. Their only cow, whose milk had been their sole income, lay dead in the field.

The younger angel was infuriated and asked the older angel "How could you have let this happen!? The first man had everything, yet you helped him," she accused. "The second family had so little, but was willing to share everything and you let their cow die."

"Things aren't always what they seem," the older angel replied."When we stayed in the basement of the mansion, I noticed there was gold stored in that hole in the wall. Since the owner was so obsessed with greed and unwilling to share his good fortune, I sealed the wall so he wouldn't find it. Then last night as we slept in the farmers bed, the angel of death came for his wife. I gave her the cow instead. "Things aren't always what they seem."

Sometimes this is exactly what happens when things don't turn out the way you think they should. If you have faith, you just need to trust that every outcome is always to your advantage. You might not know it until some time later."Things aren't always what they seem.

Contributed by Kathaleen Pinto

i like this post on chialing's blog, about humility:

once you begin to think that you’ve gone through alot, you know alot, you’ve learnt enough…

or you begin to shut your ears to other people’s opinions… or corrections, or feedback…

and you think people should totally take your opinions on the matter

that’s it, you’re going down

Wednesday, May 27

i think this story is nice.. the title is "Come follow Me".

Once upon a time, there was a man who looked upon Christmas as a lot of humbug.

He wasn't a Scrooge. He was a very kind and decent person, generous to his family, upright in all his dealings with other men. But he didn't believe all that stuff about an incarnation which churches proclaim at Christmas. And he was too honest to pretend that he did.

"I am truly sorry to distress you," he told his wife, who was a faithful churchgoer, "but I simply cannot understand this claim that God became man. It doesn't make any sense to me."

On Christmas Eve, his wife and children went to church for the midnight service. He declined to accompany them. "I'd feel like a hypocrite," he explained. "I'd much rather stay at home. But I'll wait up for you."

Shortly after his family drove away in the car, snow began to fall. He went to the window and watched the flurries getting heavier and heavier.

"If we must have a Christmas," he reflected, "it's nice to have a white one."

He went back to his chair by the fireside and began to read his newspaper. A few minutes later, he was startled by a thudding sound. It was quickly followed by another, then another. He thought that someone must be throwing snow balls at his living room window.

When he went to the front door to investigate, he found a flock of birds huddled miserably in the snow. They had been caught in the storm, and in a desperate search for shelter had tried to fly through his window.

I can't let those poor creatures lie there and freeze, he thought. But how can I help them?

Then he remembered the barn where the children's pony was stabled. It would provide a warm shelter. He quickly put on his coat and galoshes and tramped through the deepening snow to the barn. He opened the doors wide and turned on the light. But the birds didn't come in.

Food will bring them in, he thought. So he hurried back to the house for bread crumbs, which he sprinkled on the snow to make a trail into the barn. To his dismay, the birds ignored the bread crumbs and continued to flop around helplessly in the snow. He tried shooing them into the barn by walking around and waving his arms. They scattered in every direction - except into the warm, lighted barn.

"They find me a strange and terrifying creature," he said to himself, "and I can't seem to think of any way to let them know they can trust me. If only I could be a bird myself for a few minutes, perhaps I could lead them to safety."

Just at that moment, the church bells began to ring. He stood silently for a while, listening to the bells pealing the glad tidings of Christmas. Then he sank to his knees in the snow.

"Now I understand," he whispered. "Now I see why you had to do it."

i need a constant reminder to draw strength from you.. mental tiredness happens when we allow issues to accumulate, which wears us down.. help me to seek your way of clearing all these issues, and i dun wanna think so much also.. it's really stressed! so i need your strength and your love.. i don't want to let mental tiredness obstruct me from victory in you..

Tuesday, May 26

Lord, help us to appreciate The work that others do, The service given from their hearts, Their sacrifice for You. —Sper Sometimes i may neglect people who really put in the effort.. Help me and remind me to affirm them for every single things they do, even the very small things.. Because they have done it for you..

Monday, May 25

thank God.. today i was super lost at a decision to be made.. it's like on tuesday (which is tml), i got unit girls' outing & work & shepherding.. so i wouldn't be able to go for the outing at all, cuz it'll be super rush.. i can't push the work to another day due to some reasons.. yup.. i called lixin ask her when would i be able to meet her.. so like there isn't any other day except during the outing.. so like i was super frustrated at that moment.. like how? what i can do? i can't push work away, netiher can i push shepherding away, cuz sheeting got other sheep too & she nvr pick up my call.. i was super worried + irritated + emo at that time.. emo cuz i was thinking and worrying over a lot of stuff and i got headache.. den at 9, when i was about to end work, sheeting message me saying she can't meet me tml.. suddenly, everything seems settled... i really think too much at times.. so like God really reminded me one thing through this incident, which is not to huang at anytime, and just rely on Him and trust in Him.. i am glad God made a way.. God will make a way, when there seems to be no way.. He works in way we cannot see, He wil make a way for me.. He will be my guide, hold me closely to His side.. With love and strength for each new day, He will make a way, He will make a way..

Sunday, May 24

(from life app. bible) adversity destroys superficial faith. adversity strengthens real faith by causing believers to dig their roots deeper into God in order to withstand the storms. how deep does your faith goes? put the roots of your faith down deep into God so that you can withstand any storm you may face. (i like to use this analogy recently) like a tree, if roots are not deep, when the storms come, it can easily uproot it.. but if the roots grow deep, storms may come.. but the roots are so deep that it won't be easily pulled out..
i will be still and know you are God..
Search me.. Purify me.. Use me.. Help me..

Friday, May 22

the lyrics says it all..
no matter what happen, i want to sing your praise.. help me to persevere through any kinda storms that is about to come.. i am very afraid of what is to come, definitely.. but really wanna thank you that i still have that sense of assurance that you will be with me through it all.. i just wanna trust you in every circumstances.. brave through it with you.. and sing to you with my heart...
What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul? -- Matthew 16:26.. do you deny that you know God in certain circumstances? you can come up with excuses like your friends, etc.. but which is more important?! you deny that you know God just to be accepted by your friends? how much does it hurt God? Do you know? just like a couple being together.. (anw, i realised liting likes to use examples of couples recently.. lol..) if ur partner were to deny you in front of his friends, because if his friends know that you are his partner, they might not befriend him.. how will you feel?! in the same way, think of how God will feel..

Thursday, May 21

As more troubles come, God, help me to hold your hands even more tightly.. i know i won't let go of it completely.. but i just don't wanna let go a single bit.. in the midst of all troubles, help me to be still and listen to your whisper, your guidance.. and also, help me be a good salt & light among my friends.. it's not easy to bring them.. help me to do it step-by-step.. MAAB.. i don't wanna rush it.. use me greatly.. i wanna be used by you...
there one growth area God showed me during camp.. i always know i struggle from low self esteem and low self confidence.. i'm like always afraid that i will not do well in this, bla bla bla.. though in the worshop "Complete In Christ", i was half-alert, but at least i brought home somthing really important.. the person was like telling us to write some weaknesses, all those.. so like i am the kinda person who knows a lot of weaknesses but no strength about myself.. i know like everyone is unique, everyone got their strengths and weaknesses, no one can be perfect.. but that message just doesn't get into my heart till camp.. though now i can't really rmb what i was sharing with hannah.. but i rmb that time the message went into my heart already.. that's why i am happy!! haha.. plus today.. for cg, i am supposed to do worship.. i remember how i lead some worships last time.. den how i failed sometimes.. i was so afraid.. but like God remind me "in camp, you said u wanna go to the ends of the earth for me.. willing to go all out to do everything you can for me.. now, why don't you have the faith in me that i will lead you later? confidence come from faith in God.." Later on, i felt more confident due to His assurance.. so i went to zhe wei's house.. a lil' stress out.. cuz like i just cant catch that tune, plus i was so afraid i cant sing well... So zhe wei spoke almost the same thing to me.. i was taken aback.. like God is assuring me/reminding me once again.. zhe wei said that i lack confidence and said some stuff.. which like.. WOA! So really thank God for him and thank God for using him.. :) though this time round the worship i still think it didn't went well.. as what liting says heart ready, skills not ready.. so i really need to talk to God about this.. haha.. so i go do my QT now.. see u :D

Tuesday, May 19

From Daphne's blog.. This post serves as a reminder for me as well.. Sometimes i tell myself, i have overcome it, i have grown.. But the next moment, i fell.. So like not only should i guard my heart well, i should also evaluate it and be humble.. This is an excerpt of Rick Warren’s teaching, How to Maintain Moral Integrity in the Ministry: Never consider yourself above temptation. Don’t kid yourself. People say, “It couldn’t happen to me.” That’s a bunch of baloney. We need to be aware how vulnerable all of us are. The first defense is an attitude of humility that says, “I’m a human being.” We need to watch out. 1 Corinthians 10:12 (LB) says, “So be careful if you are thinking, ‘Oh, I’d never behave like that.’ Let this be a warning to you, for you too may fall into sin.” None of us are invulnerable. None of us are immune. Proverbs 16:18 (NIV) says, “Pride goes before destruction and a haughty spirit before a fall.” The morning I say, “I’ve conquered that problem,” that’s the morning I’m open for temptation.

Monday, May 18

I need to guard my heart, so the devil can't pull me further from God.. Spiritual complacency is the word.. God keep reminding me of this word after camp... So like i really wanna grow exponentially with God.. I hate stagnancy.. that feeling is not good at all.. ya... [Proverbs 4:23] - “Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.” A part of the day 2 devotions keep shouting to me.. God really wants to remind me so that no matter what the devil is trying to do to me, to prevent me from going closer to God or doing more for God will not affect my r/s with God.. Day 2 devotions - Wrestling is an intense sport and requires every part of our body. It is impossible to remain aloof and unentangled from the opponent. The opponent will seize every opportunity to regain his advantage. No, in order to win the wrestling match, one must involve his whole body in combat, and be constantly pushing oneself to be better than his opponent. Jacob was engaged fully with God in wrestling and did not give up until he got what he wanted from the Lord. (It's not possible to get rid of Devil's grip.. because he longs to tear you down.. he just know when is the best time to attack you, so never ever give up, persevere till the end.. and of course go through it with God la.. Things will be much easier, and more tolerable.. Because He will help you, guide you and be there for you all the way..) It is easy sometimes for the Christian to fall into complacency, into a lull, when he fails to realise that achieving victory as a Christian is like being in a wrestling match. When one becomes complacent, he lets his guard down and the enemy or opponent can quickly seize the chance to gain an advantage in our lives. The victory we had achieved moments earlier could turn out to be shortlived if we do not keep up the struggle. As we deal with an opponent (the devil and our own sinful nature) that never sleeps nor tires, we can only achieve victory in Christ by constantly being on guard, and constantly struggling to defeat our opponent, with God’s strength. (Last time i always wonder why after a spiritual victory then i will experience dryness.. Now i know it's because of complacency.. Now, after camp, i have grown spiritually, i really wanna guard well and fight well with God and for God.. I no longer want spiritual victory to be short lived.. God, help me to fight the battle well, help me to keep up and even grow much closer to you.. i am afraid i can't keep up with the struggle, so help me and give me the strength and determination..) Finally achieving victory is also likened to running and finishing a race. However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace. - Acts 20:24 Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize. - 1 Cor 9:24-27 Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. - Phi 3:13-14 (God, keep reminding me of the goal.. Because when i have the goal in mind, no matter what obstacles/difficulties i may face, i can go through them powerfully.. i wanna beat my body and make it slave for you! Press on, for i wanna grow deeper into you.. Help me keep up with all struggles..) those who want the link to the devotions, here it is: http://reflectionsofadisciple.blogspot.com/

Wednesday, May 13

the unit C people are really nice.. they makes me feel home.. like family that kinda feeling, wouldn't feel very awkward.. i feel blessed.. :D i was thinking like although only went out with them like 3 times, i can feel that way is like woa! cuz i am a shy person! haha.. ya.. then get to know people takes a longer time.. oya.. coming to this point.. last time, i need quite long to be familiar with a person, but now no need so long already.. Not because i am not shy anymore.... but it's the initiative i have taken to know the person.. every relationship requires initiative.. the more initiative u are, the faster a bond is build, and the faster a friendship can grow.. (anyway, the more i type, the more i dunno what i am typing.. so if u understand the post, then great.. lol..)

Sunday, May 10

today sermon there's a point about signs for the second-coming.. the signs were quite scary, really can't imagine those points come to pass... so while wen jiang was talking about the signs, i was thinking, if i were to be tortured for 5 months, persecutions.... will i be able to hold on tightly to God? my reply to myself is yes.. but imagine that situation........ so now, i am gonna build myself up even stronger.. so that in times to come, no matter how hard the situations are, i will never never let go of God.. his love is the reason.. he can go thru all the sufferings on earth, why can't i? yup.. i wanna be ready for the second-coming..

Friday, May 8

Today was slacking while working.. and was talking to daphne.. she said one of her friends changed a few courses before coming to nursing in her school.. so in my mind i was thinking lots of things la.. like that person doesn't have any clear goals before going to the course that she wants.. so i am seriously very very thankful that i became a christian while i was in JC.. you may think like what's the link with being a christian and goals.. But the thing is that being a nurse was not my childhood dream or whatever it is.. when going JC, i thought my future uni course is like biochem, or anything along that line.. then, it's after a levels, the passion for being a nurse came in.. more of a burden.. if i wasn't a christian, i wouldn't have such a clear goal.. never in my life do i have a clear goal, until i receive Christ.. yup.. That's why i feel so blessed :D why do i wanna be a nurse? Firstly, it's because of my brother.. He's disabled, cerebal palsy.. I wanna be a nurse partly is because i can learn to take care of him better in the future.. and because of my brother, and the people in his school, i seek to help these people too.. after 16 years, i finally understood why God placed this brother in my life.. i love him lots, just will question why God made him like this.. But now i understood.. yup.. Secondly, it's because of my personality.. or rather spiritual giftings.. my spiritual giftings are craftsmanship, mercy, encouragement and serving.. so why u wanna be a nurse is because i feel for the sick, i feel for the people, and i wanna serve them in a way.. i wouldn't want to work in a private hospital, not in A class wards.. just wanna serve in the normal wards, where there's 4-6 patients in one ward.. or maybe critical care.. Thirdly, i wanna be sent to the under-priviledge countries(same burden as daphne), to serve there in times of need.. like the other time, ther's sars, medical teams were sent to the country to help.. there will be more of these to come(end-times), so i wanna be sent there to help the people.. and those were times where people will be lost, and are seeking for more.. (though there may be language barrier) that's why i am really really happy to be a nurse.. really happy that God gave me such a clear goal/vision.. If i were to go for the interview without this clear goal, i wouldn't have pass it.. i am sure about that.. So really really Thank GOD!!!!!!!! With Him, everything is possible.. He will guide me through everything and anything.. it's really a blessing to have Him in my life!